What a difference a year makes ( Read more... )

I'm not worth it. I don't deserve that title "Brother". My eyes have become fixed to the floor. Our picture, now face down on my desk. Even now as I type my hands quiver and shake, my heart races and my mouth is dry. I've been cold since last night even as I rest beside my radiator. Even as I lay awake sleepless beneath my blankets staring at my ( Read more... )

IT'S OVER!!!!!!! I'm lifted. I woke up this morning and I was happy. I was motherfucking happy for the first time since last summer. I wish I could share this feeling with someone. It's got me almost in tears as I type this. I was all uppity and shit this morning as I was getting dressed all humming and shit. It feels great, I don't want this ( Read more... )

I know I'm a little late for this, but Happy New Year. A chance to start over, A chance to do things just a little better. Christmas went good. I got to see my fam and I smiled. I was happy for once. I think that it's just impossible for me to be upset on Christmas. The Day is too magical ( Read more... )

I feel alone at times, noone could ever begin to understand me. I've been living with myself for my entire life, and I still don't understand me. I just feel like I have a huge void that has never been filled. I believed twice that I was in love. I guess thats just because I felt as if I needed to be in love. I still believe that, but I want it to ( Read more... )

You had the answer it spread like cancer ( Read more... )

The semester is finally over. (sigh of relief)I've done every form of work that I can and am going to do. The rest is up to my teachers to look back at me and realize eventhough I bullshitted, I always knew what I was doing and I deserve a much higher grade than I actually earned............or something like that. Fuck it, I don't care because I'm ( Read more... )

Close your eyes and just picture us lifting ( Read more... )

Well, it's the eve of the beginning of my last week at school. This means alot of things for me. One, I have alotta work to do. Two, Theres alotta people I wont be seeing everyday now. Three, I'm gonna have alot more free time to work on my music and such. Four, I'm gonna be getting more hours at work. and Five, I have one semester left at BCCC ( Read more... )

Wow, it's been a minute since I updated this. Well, the Turkey Bowl went great, WE WON. My boy scored, It was so damn fun. It takes going to see someone elses family to realize what Thanksgiving truly is about. My weekend went pretty good. The Ravens destroyed the fourty-niners and Maryland killed Wake, so it was a great weekend for my two teams ( Read more... )