reviewing the situation
In the past few months, I feel like I've went from having many close friends to having very few. Dare I even say, my 5 closest friends have been whittled down to like... 0.5 friends. If that's even possible. It probably isn't. You know what I mean.
But what can you do when your friend stops talking to you? Or what if they start shit talking behind your back? How about when they start sending everyone your message history? Or what if they get enlisted to Korea for >=6 months? (33haltan I'm referring to you, and anyone else who's going/will be going there too LOLOLOL) And when everyone else has their busy lives that still revolve around school and work, who else is there to go to?
This fucking livejournal, that's who you talk to.
Though I must admit, friendships take effort from both sides, and I haven't really been meeting anyone in the middle lately. I barely go out, and I can't even remember the last time I've done so. I know. I'm a hypocrite. And while Jin and I still talk often, I feel like I should have taken the time to hang out with her more often before she's leaving. Which is tomorrow. Ahhhh.
In what was a terribly stark revelation, I finally understood that these friend problems I've been having may not entirely be all because of everyone else and not me. At first glance, I thought - I'm such a perfect friend, how could I deserve all this shit I've been getting from people...but the sheer fact that I've been getting this kind of response from the majority of people tells me that the problem might be internal, and that maybe there's something wrong with me that's causing them to retaliate. Because as the laws of physics dictate, in every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction, and while I loathe physics and using physics related analogies, this one rings resplendently true.
If everyone wants to peace out, then fine. Peace.
For the record, Jin is not a friend problem. I'm just really sad that she'll be away for so long. No more crazy ring ding dong impersonation for a while :< promise to make videos!!!
But what can you do when your friend stops talking to you? Or what if they start shit talking behind your back? How about when they start sending everyone your message history? Or what if they get enlisted to Korea for >=6 months? (33haltan I'm referring to you, and anyone else who's going/will be going there too LOLOLOL) And when everyone else has their busy lives that still revolve around school and work, who else is there to go to?
This fucking livejournal, that's who you talk to.
Though I must admit, friendships take effort from both sides, and I haven't really been meeting anyone in the middle lately. I barely go out, and I can't even remember the last time I've done so. I know. I'm a hypocrite. And while Jin and I still talk often, I feel like I should have taken the time to hang out with her more often before she's leaving. Which is tomorrow. Ahhhh.
In what was a terribly stark revelation, I finally understood that these friend problems I've been having may not entirely be all because of everyone else and not me. At first glance, I thought - I'm such a perfect friend, how could I deserve all this shit I've been getting from people...but the sheer fact that I've been getting this kind of response from the majority of people tells me that the problem might be internal, and that maybe there's something wrong with me that's causing them to retaliate. Because as the laws of physics dictate, in every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction, and while I loathe physics and using physics related analogies, this one rings resplendently true.
If everyone wants to peace out, then fine. Peace.
For the record, Jin is not a friend problem. I'm just really sad that she'll be away for so long. No more crazy ring ding dong impersonation for a while :< promise to make videos!!!