So Lynn purchased a TV from Jon's brother. He was supposed to come pick it up last night. This involves me because it's in our living space and it's a 42" projection tv. Not small. With the TV gone we can rearrange things a bit and have room for me to have a desk again rather than sitting on the floor to use my gaming system or borrowing Jon's ( Read more... )

In any new relationship I have to see how my SO deals with anger, with frustration, with things not going right. I have to know that I can deal with how they deal with their feelings. So many times in the past would trigger me and I just couldn't deal with it ( Read more... )

( I hate poetry and yet when I'm blocked it's all I can seem to write. )

I find myself at a crossroads. It’s been suggested that I pick a guy and “trap” him in a relationship. It’s been suggested that I cut and run, make it on my own. It’s been suggested I shut up and stay where I’m at, bite my tongue and pretend I don’t hurt.

I don’t want to trap anybody. That implies no escape, futility. I’ve been there. I’ve felt the ( Read more... )

It's is a measure of just how down I was when I realize how up I am today. I'm not even overly happy because of plans. I mean, OwlCon this weekend and gaming but it's just the lifting of the emotional storm that I was in for a week.

It's just such a relief to feel back to normal.

So, met with Dr. Davis yesterday. It was a meet and greet mostly, for us to talk with him and lay out our various issues.

After talking with Lynn a bit he's set up for Lynn to have a hearing test and investigating his memory issues. He thinks most of the issues are related to these two. And .. I can totally see that. So we'll start with that and ( Read more... )

I would 'really' love just once in a while to not feel like everything I say or am interested in is met with nothing but negative from everybody around me.

I'm always the cheerleader but when it's time for me to need a cheerleader the stands are empty.

Yeah .. not a good day so far.

Dragon is a fairly laid back kind of guy. So is Lynn, but he still often puts forth opinions while telling me, most of the time, that it's my choice. But Dragon rarely speaks up ... though he's had more to say recently on various subjects.

Yesterday I got the first serious request from him that I think I've ever had.

Dragon wants it clearly ( Read more... )

The cycle continues.

I posted last week about an issue with a friend that keeps happening. And I got a message that continues the cycle.

After he does these things to me and I tell him that he's being rude he goes off in a huff. A few days (or weeks) will go by and I'll get a message from him saying that he was wrong to treat me in such a way. I ( Read more... )

Apparently I woke up on the wrong side of the bed, despite it being my side of the bed. That or I was crowned Mayor Cranky McCrankypants of Crankytown while I was asleep. I suspect going to sleep with a migraine has contributed to it. Waking up feeling sticky, sweaty, and icky didn't help, nor did the acid. At least I can acknowledge that I'm not ( Read more... )