Same old bullshit. Life sucks. I hate myself. I hate the world. Why the fuck do I continue to put up with this shit? Blah, blah, blah ( Read more... )

Fucking wow. This shit just gets better and better ( Read more... )

I don't feel anything anymore. I don't care about anything anymore. I'm just sick of everything. Nothing is getting better. Nothing has changed. The world sucks and I hate everyone. I hate how I'll get called selfish if I kill myself even though I think it's selfish that I have to pretend to live so that everyone else can pretend they care. I'm ( Read more... )

So like, my parents are missing. They went to Alaska in early June and called once a week to let us know how things were going - but now neither of my brothers, sister-in-law, or I have heard from them in over 3 weeks. I'm sure they are fine, but I mean, a five minute call once a week wouldn't kill anybody, even if the long distance charges are ( Read more... )

Still haven't heard from the traumatic stress program. Most of the family is still not talking to me. Thinking about suicide again ( Read more... )

I feel floaty and empty. So much going on around me, but i don't want to acknowlegde it. It hutrts, make the pain stop ( Read more... )

I guess it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, but i'm probably going to have to live in awkward silence with my parents for the next two weeks (until the next session). They didn't flip out like i expected them too and while they did say that they believed me i am not feeling it ( Read more... )

( tuesday's drinking game - drink every time i swear )

I have only been getting three hours of sleep at a time, but i am not throwing up any more thankfully. I have not had any for a while, but i wish i had some weed to smoke. I would certainly sleep like a rock then ( Read more... )

( feeling numb and alone etc. may trigger )