Still haven't heard from the traumatic stress program. Most of the family is still not talking to me. Thinking about suicide again ( Read more... )

The thoughts with which i have been scaring myself - so much as to keep me awake tonight:

My parents are still at my grandma's house, using my cousin's computer and reading my blog - which my cousin probably found when he was here last week (because he's actually computer literate) and is now showing to my parents.Heh. The shit would really hit ( Read more... )

I'm really upset, frustrated and really unsure what to do about something that was triggered last night. I guess i should start with a little backgroud information so anyone reading this can understand the difficulty of this situation. Please excuse the bad spelling and bad grammar and i'm sorry if i bounce all over the place. Please bear with me ( Read more... )