I comb over the paperwork again, double-checking the spreadsheet I created and still coming up short. We are so over budget, and part of the problem is I can't get my employees to leave. Why won't they go home to their families? I could stay here for 20 hours a day and still have work to do, but at some point, I have to go home to my kids. And ( Read more... )

It feels like it is way too early, but I guess that's what happens when you come off working the night shift. All I know is I pulled my share and now it is someone elses turn. I run my fingers through my hair as I stare at the board- wishing I would actually understand everything that is written up there. It's just not sinking in today ( Read more... )

It's late in the day, and I'm hoping to get out of here as soon as I scrub out of this hysteroscopy with D&C and laparoscopy with right oophorectomy. It's not that I don't want to be here or in surgery. This is what I truly love. It's that I know Mark is skulking around. So far, I've been successful in avoiding him. I haven't even made eye ( Read more... )

There's some redheaded, pasty, persistent moron following Addison around and I don't like it. The nurses are saying things. The interns are saying things. I don't like the things that any of them are saying. It doesn't sound anything like what Addison would do. She doesn't just jump from man to man. I know better than that ( Read more... )

I think I hit the tequilla too hard last night. That's rather obvious when I wake up in an on call room bunk the next morning with my head throbbing. I guess I had to make up for what I didn't drink the first night. Or maybe I've gotten out of the bar scene and sent too many nights at home. Maybe I'm losing it ( Read more... )

There's a consult in the ER for a patient with possible infectious endocarditis and rather than getting the patient in the ICU, they want me to come look at him first. What I'm expecting is somebody fat and overweight with poor dental hygiene. What I'm not expecting is a seventeen year old kid that's built like an olympic runner. I take a look at ( Read more... )

It’s been one of those days - the sort that gets under my skin and makes me wonder why the hell I wanted to become a surgeon in the first place. Two patients have coded on me -one of them during surgery- and though I know that neither of them are my fault; that there was nothing I could do to prevent them; it doesn’t help the feeling of loss that ( Read more... )

I never left the house today, I can't leave the house, not with my face looking like this. People would ask too many questions and really the story raises even more questions that I don't wish to answer right now, or ever. If I just wait until it goes down a little, there won't be so many questions. I just don't know how long that part is going ( Read more... )

I watch as Sloan packs her child up from down the hall and I shake my head. She'll be the first to go if I have any say. I'm getting ready to turn her department upside down in a major way, I only have to get through the formalities ( Read more... )

Today is a nightmare, and this nightmare is courtesy of Mark. Mattias is on his way home, but he wasn't able to get a flight until this morning. My choices were to call in sick or bring Ana to work with me for a second full day ( Read more... )