I spy Cristina in the locker room, changing out of her scrubs. I walk in and close the door behind me. I've been looking for all day and I haven't been able to find her. Now I have the chance to tell her what Lexie told me and I can tell Cristina how I really feel...even if I'm not sure how I really feel about the situation ( Read more... )

It was nice waking up with Derek this morning, even if it was a little earlier than normal because his daughter was awake before the birds were even singing. I sat and made faces at her while he fed her breakfast, and I kept an eye on her for him when he took a shower. I know I'm not ready for my own kids, but this might be ok. He doesn't see ( Read more... )

I head to the coffee cart and grab two coffees and two muffins. I spotted Alex at the nurses station a few minutes ago and I bet he is still there. Sometimes I feel like part of my job at work is to make sure he eats or something, when I remember ( Read more... )

Burke texted and said he was running late so I decided to take Meredith up on her invitation to Joe's. It's not like I'm going to get wasted but I haven't been to Joe's in forever and I'm sure she's got issues with Alex ( Read more... )

It feels like it is way too early, but I guess that's what happens when you come off working the night shift. All I know is I pulled my share and now it is someone elses turn. I run my fingers through my hair as I stare at the board- wishing I would actually understand everything that is written up there. It's just not sinking in today ( Read more... )

I spot Cristina at the nurses station as I come out of my last surgery for the day- at least I hope it was. I still have a mountain of paperwork to finish up and labs to run. Not having an interns suck. These are things I had to do when I was an intern and I'm still doing them ( Read more... )

For the rest time in a long time, my alarm goes off and I have to reach over Alex to turn it off. He actually came home. I may have been asleep when he got here, but he came home. I think that means more to me then it should ( Read more... )

Today was a busy, horrible day, running from one department to another. When I finally finish, and I pack up to leave, I realize Mattias already has the girls in bed, and by the time I get home, they'll be fast asleep. The mommy guilt is unbearable, especially now that my time with Maggie is so limited. The thought makes me seethe with anger ( Read more... )

I've never been more nervous for coffee in my life. I got to the hospital an hour early to give myself plenty of time to have a first cup of coffee and prepare myself for the conversation ahead of me. I'm not sure why I allowed Lexie to talk me into this, because it's a good idea, because I still haven't packed his stuff up from my room. Those ( Read more... )

After making the rounds on a few of my post-op patients, I head to the resident lounge to change and head home. I kinda wish I were on-call tonight, but with the new hour restrictions, I won't have my nights busy until next week ( Read more... )