"Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell." edna st vincent millay ( Read more... )

Well, judgment day has come. Michael and I will be deciding what to do with our relationship much sooner than later. I want to stay here so so badly, but I don't want to lose him. That's a stupid reason to give up doing something you love... I'll always love this something, I might not always love him. Fuck me. I swear I'm not doing this again. The ( Read more... )

I don't want to finish that quote. But I don't see how we can do this. I've never loved another person so much as I love Michael. But one of us is going to have to make the biggest sacrifice and that person will end up resenting the other, possibly forever if he or she makes that sacrifice and we still don't make it work ( Read more... )

I'm leaving tomorrow and my heart skips a beat every time I think about it too much. I'm excited, but I'm nervous as hell. I mean this is the exact opposite life that I'm used to. My two suitcases probably weigh more than I do; every time I walk into my mostly barren bedroom, I find another thing that I'm convinced I can't live without. I'm going ( Read more... )

In the early morning hours on the eve of my supposed departure, a calm is settling over me. I know I'm not leaving tomorrow, and I think a few days was just what I needed. Second guessing the biggest decision of my life is not something I should be doing 35 hours before my flight takes off ( Read more... )

Sign contract... check ( Read more... )

I have a feeling I'm going to be listening to this song a LOT over the next year. Thanks, Court!

A lot of people my age are getting married and having babies, or working on baby number 2, 3+. I'm moving across the world. Is there something wrong with me? Am I making a mistake?

22 days until Go-Time and the worries/second guesses are setting in.

Shit just got real. Well, kinda real, I haven't bought the plane tickets yet and my passport expires in April, so I need to get it renewed. But as real as it can be without those minor details; I GOT THE JOB ( Read more... )

It's official: Interview Wednesday, January 12, 2011. I'm so excited! And nervous. I don't know if anyone reads this, but if you can think of any questions that you'd ask, please let me know. I'm horrible at coming up with questions until way after the fact ( Read more... )

I'm applying for a one year position in Ho Chi Minh City, Vietnam and I'm painfully excited and anxious about it. I need to do something drastic and crazy, I think, to get out of this rut. I've been jobless since Aug and off of my career path since... forever. This would be a wonderful opportunity to learn and travel and do all the things I've ever ( Read more... )