He took her out of his AIM profile, off of his myspace, and off of his facebook. He's selling back the engadgement ring. When he touches my hand I get butterflies (but occasionally I want to puke from feeling so nervous and guilty). When he looks at me I can't stop smiling; he loves that I can't stop smiling ( Read more... )

I'm tired. Exhausted really... not becuase I don't get enough sleep, my roomate and I are the notorious Helyar sleepers. But because everything is happening so fast and all at once. I can't believe Halloween is a week and a day away.. where exactly did October go and what on earth was I doing in the meantime ( Read more... )

So, for starters I'm in love with Courtney M. Bauman, but that's no secret. We've been spending time together lately and even though we go months without seeing each other we pick up like nothing ever left off. We went to Cherry Hill last night to play with Henry and Sid and some of their friends. We had an amazing time, I knew she'd like them they ( Read more... )

Well, another yeasr has passed. Well, not really a year, but a semester... I still hate who I've become. Probably becuase I don't even know who that is? How do we live so long and not even know who we are? How do we get through each and every day living with ourselves and still question the decisions we make? I'm so fucked up in the head, it's ( Read more... )

Well, it's 2006 and I can't believe it. It doesn't even feel like we just celebrated the new year. Don't get me wrong, I went to an awesome party, but thats all it felt like: an awesome party ( Read more... )

I am profoundly and irreversibly screwed up. I don't even know what to do with myself anymore ( Read more... )

It's been a lifetime since I last wrote and my life could not be more different... I am not the girl you once knew. I don't really even know who I am anymore, but whoever I am now I like her and I think she'll make it far in life ( Read more... )

It's been quite some time since I last [soberly] wrote, and while everything is different, nothing has changed. I'm still living in Helyar, maybe getting a new roommate [hoping Hig moves in]. Spending a majority of my summer at Rutgers for many reasons, good paying job, classes, and the boyfriend of a lifetime. Nick and I are still together, ( Read more... )

I am all kinds of drunk... its been quite the longwhile since i had a drunken entry. Lif e is crazy, I think Nick and I might break up soon. I'm not happy, but surprisingly, I'm not sad either. I've "reached a new level of existance" as Glenn would say. I love him greatly... I hope he still lives here next semester. I can't tell you how much I ( Read more... )

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