I am SO cranky right now. And disappointed, upset, confused, lonely.... I don't really know why. I mean, it's spring break and I'm spending it working at the rec center, and while there's very little fun (all of which is provided by the wonderful Tim H) I'm making a butt load of money in one week... who can complain ( Read more... )

One step forward, three steps back. What we had will never go away and it kills me that you pretend it did. I know you stil feel the same, I see the way you look at me and graze your hand against mine for no apparent reason. Sometimes I would like rewind time and live it all over again, even the pain, just as a reminder of how amazing it was ( Read more... )

And even though the new one is the most fun and best there could ever be, I miss the old one more than he could ever know.

Its been a long time since I've felt this way... I can't focus on much of anything. My swearing off boys has gone relatively well, I suppose. I've seen Joe a few times and since he avoids me it's kind of awkward, but whatever. I suppose it's to be expected. He appears to be getting over Nicole pretty well, good for him. I don't regret anything but ( Read more... )

HE kissed ME! I didn't do anything to encourage or discourage it. I was being my silly ridiculous self and he kissed me. I'm not taking it to heart or seriously or anything like that, but damn it! I didn't do much of anything to stop it either though. When he went to say something about it I merely smiled and said, "Don't. You'll ruin it ( Read more... )

So, I've already decided I have a drinking problem... its TUesday, almost midnight and I have a killer buzz going. I think I'm done for the night though, good decision Lauryn ( Read more... )

It's amazing how quickly things change... and I say that almost every entry, and yet continue to be amazed. I've still given up all hope on the male species. Its funny really, there are two guys right now, either of which in the past three months I would have dropped the rest of my life for, that have decided to be total douchebags and take back ( Read more... )

There are so many words in the english language, but none of them describe this feeling that I have in me right now. I am, not gonna lie, kinda buzzed, but more importantly in love. And I say this often, so no one takes me seriously, but this 'love' that I feel is unending, indescribeable, and amazing. I didn't know you could love someone this way ( Read more... )

So, I'm kind of drained of all emotion lately. Nothing is going the way I hoped or planned, which is generally the case. Except this time I really thought things were different. I know I've said this a million times over, but I am offically done with the male species... I can't keep falling for them and getting my heart broken, I'm not strong ( Read more... )

UGGHHHHHH I know I totally posted like 5 hours ago and I was sooo happy.. BUT I HATE her. She leads him on and he for some reason misses her. If some guy dumped me I'm pretty sure I'd be like FUCK YOU, DON'T TALK TO ME ANYMORE. But no, I guess he was in LOVE.... roar, fuck LOVE and FUCK her.... I hate her and this whooollleeee situation. I am the ( Read more... )