Hope dies last... I'm almost all out
So, I'm kind of drained of all emotion lately. Nothing is going the way I hoped or planned, which is generally the case. Except this time I really thought things were different. I know I've said this a million times over, but I am offically done with the male species... I can't keep falling for them and getting my heart broken, I'm not strong enough anymore. I think I'm going to finish these next 3 semsters on my own, no particular boy and definitely no feelings of enamor and such.
Although, I'm sure that if Joe came in here right now and said he'd been foolish for all of the things he's said and done in the past week and that he finally realized that this where he wants to be, I'd probably die of joy. Sadly, I think its really really over and even when he gets over Nicole, he won't be interested in me. It was certainly fun while it lasted and I'm really sad, like you have no idea how sad, like I haven't talked to anyone nor smiled in 3 days involuntairily, that it had to end. I guess it's better now than a few months from now. I mean, it was only one month out of my life, right?
I just wish he didn't meet so many friends from home. He made such a perfect and positive impression on all of them, and now when I next see them and they ask about him, what can I say? Boo, no one meets my home friends anymore unless we're engadged.... except Courtney because the boy will need her approval of course.
School sucks, only 2 more weeks, but I can't really take it anymore. I've developed this overwhelming apathy that is ultimately going to ruin my GPA... it's really hard to stay motivated these days. What the hell is wrong with me? The end, I'm napping before the game...
Although, I'm sure that if Joe came in here right now and said he'd been foolish for all of the things he's said and done in the past week and that he finally realized that this where he wants to be, I'd probably die of joy. Sadly, I think its really really over and even when he gets over Nicole, he won't be interested in me. It was certainly fun while it lasted and I'm really sad, like you have no idea how sad, like I haven't talked to anyone nor smiled in 3 days involuntairily, that it had to end. I guess it's better now than a few months from now. I mean, it was only one month out of my life, right?
I just wish he didn't meet so many friends from home. He made such a perfect and positive impression on all of them, and now when I next see them and they ask about him, what can I say? Boo, no one meets my home friends anymore unless we're engadged.... except Courtney because the boy will need her approval of course.
School sucks, only 2 more weeks, but I can't really take it anymore. I've developed this overwhelming apathy that is ultimately going to ruin my GPA... it's really hard to stay motivated these days. What the hell is wrong with me? The end, I'm napping before the game...