The most memories I have are always the ones that have the most shit people in them. All the "friends" that I care for the most and speak the best of, put the highest up there, do the most for, always end up letting me down. I understand that all of your time is not going to be spent with just and only me. Thats a given, thats only human nature, ( Read more... )

I think im going to re-read Mists...lately Ive been struggling. struggling with two worlds that I cant give up on. I cant give up on the drugs the chemistry with strangers the night life the crazy ideas...but I cant give up on the responsibilities..the hopes and dreams I thought I had...the beautiful shine of my soul. thats what I feel like. I feel ( Read more... )

Sometimes when the sun shines down, placing sweet warm kisses on my skin, I feel like driving...far far away....to someplace warm...to the coast...or to the streets of hollywood...somewhere where I can just walk around and meet new people..eccentric, diverse, people...and think about the way the world used to be ( Read more... )

Im tired of school now. I dont know what happened..maybe its just that getting close to summer feeling but I think I lost control of my schoolwork and now Im worried I wont come back from it. Im just tired of getting up and going, Im tired of having things to turn in...but im not tired of painting them..or the ideas I have for them...is that weird ( Read more... )

The cars looked like slow moving blood streams, veins of this huge twinkling light town.
The only thing that moves fast in Oahu is the clouds.

Future

Name: Malia
Age: 21
Location: Hawaii with Linda
Interests: Raid, Portugese sausage egg rice, trying to make a living in a place my soul loves.

I re-read that last entry and Im surprised at how amazing that all just flowed out of me. And I realized It kinda hurts how easy it was for me to let Steven fade away. I think about things now..and they just dont have any exccitement to them anymore, and excitement isnt even the word Im looking for..they just dont have anything attached to them ( Read more... )

I need to learn to fight for the things I want. I think if I fought for them harder...maybe theyd turn out differently...maybe theyd stay instead of floating away on the breeze ( Read more... )

So glad to see you well overcome and completely silent now With heaven's help you cast your demons out ( Read more... )

Center. Center. Focus. Self. Self. Deep Breaths ( Read more... )

Diaphanous Dress Clinging Curves Slow Sweet Sweeping Hips