He knows so much about these things

[ribbonsofivy]

Im tired of school now. I dont know what happened..maybe its just that getting close to summer feeling but I think I lost control of my schoolwork and now Im worried I wont come back from it. Im just tired of getting up and going, Im tired of having things to turn in...but im not tired of painting them..or the ideas I have for them...is that weird?? And Im tired of always doing things for everyone else and not taking care of myself. I need to do all my homework this weekend..I dont need to go out and party with jeremy and bryan and waste a day..I need to do homework..I dont need to go to My First Rave...I need to do my homework. Next week is the last week of school and I have 3 painting assigments to do, and 2 essays, and finals to worry about...not to mention all the digital homework I need to do....Fuck Ive fucked myself over...and I kinda dont care as much as I should. Next year will be better...next year Ill keep up.....right? And Im so tired of always trying to do everything for him, and keeping him entertained...I CANT DO IT fuck. Im getting so tired of it all. And Ill have to get a job full time after next week..I just ugh..i give up...Im TIRED of school, of having no money, of gas prices, of war, of anger, of fights, of him, of her, of this disgusting house,

of this life.

"I would go out tonight but I havent got a stitch to wear..."