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I'm hurt and I'm broken. I'm not whole and I'm bruised. There's something not right and I feel so used. I wish I had words that could say how I feel. Instead I just stare and I try to just breathe. When you sit there and think, for hours on end, how this world could be better if you let just end. And cutting is better than guns I suppose. ( Read more... ) -
Wanting to blog
So its been a VERY long time since I've posted anything here. I highly doubt that any of my "followers" even log on here anymore. Still, I've had this urge to blog again. I just feel like I need an outlet, and writing has worked in the past. I was tempted to start a blog site like so many people seem to be doing these days, but my bloggings ( Read more... ) -
Starting over
Wow, I haven't logged into LJ in years... However, I felt the need to blog about my feelings and while diaries are nice, I type so much faster ( Read more... ) -
Romeo oh romeo
Yeah, I feel this incredible urge to write, to do something and yet all I want to do right now is lay around like a lazy bitch. I don't know why I get like this still. I don't even know if I trust that I still have a mental illness or if I ever did. Its so hard to trust when you've been betrayed. Its so hard to love when you have nothing in you ( Read more... ) -
I don't believe in private blogging
So I was debating which of my four blogs to post this on that will get the least amount of attention. And then it hit me... lj! almost no one I know reads this anymore and for those that do... ATTENTION THIS COULD CONTAIN SOME INFORMATION OF A SEMI-PRIVATE NATURE. There that should cover it ( Read more... ) -
Old Spice
This should be safe here, no one reads this anymore ( Read more... ) -
Gray day
So right now I just kinda wished I could have my old dreams back for a few minutes. Like the ones about going to medical school. Or living in D-town forever. I miss my friends. And its just a dreary day up here. I want to see Liz's new haircut. I want to hang with Stephie-butt and drag her to get her dress for my wedding. I want to chill ( Read more... ) -
And so it happens...
That's right folks. Over the weekend (which was supposed to be a celebration of Brian's birthday) he officially proposed. On Monday he had called my father and asked for his permission and blessing. To that question my dad answered "Well of course!" Then Friday night, the 10th, Brian and I were talking over candle-light about how happy we were and ( Read more... ) -
shiny things
So I know he has the ring now! I saw the purchase in the checkbook, and I have seen the ring box in his pocket today. We are going out to a fancy dinner tonight and tomorrow night (to throw me off???!) so I don't have a clue exactly when its going to happen, but I will have a diamond by then end of the weekend I'm sure. :D I'm so excited!!! -
If there was something better to do I wouldn't be so boring!
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