Old Spice
This should be safe here, no one reads this anymore.
So today at work we had a visiting associate from CT. A very nice gentleman indeed and he joined us for lunch. I sat through the whole meal and chatted pleasently with him and listened to his stories about growing up in this area and then doing television for about 10 years or so before starting with Hewitt. Anyhow, I digress. As we were leaving he held the door open for me and I somehow got a wiff of his scent. I don't know if it was his deoderant or his body wash or a combination of all of the above but it smelled like Joseph... Oh dear goodness it smelled like yesterdays gone by with long summer nights and first loves and nights making out in the car. It smelled like so much. It smelled like the thing I would get a sniff of when I was missing him when I was so in love before. And it just threw me back down memory lane. It made me long for those warm days and exciting nights, the strong arms and the love of the first guy who ever noticed I was a woman. That exciting first kiss... and that smell. I've always loved that smell, and I always will. Just as I will always cherish the summer that I grew up and learned how to really love. I can't and won't go back. I don't want to. The grass isn't greener, but the smell sure is strong... Maybe next time Brian runs out of deoderant I will accidently buy Old Spice instead. Although I have thought about it, and that just wouldn't be fair to any of us. To Brian, because I don't want to make him something he is not. To me, because I don't want to make myself love him for anything other than what he is. Or to Joseph, because he is his own person and to try and steal bits and pieces of him and force them into another person or relationship is just not right or fair. I feel better now that I got it all down. Please, no one get the idea I don't love my (soon to be!) husband. I do with all my heart and soul. And don't think I'm still in love with Joseph, I'm not. That chapter is over. The book continues. But as far as character development, that chapter was fairly crucial so it won't ever go away... kinda like the smell of Old Spice...
So today at work we had a visiting associate from CT. A very nice gentleman indeed and he joined us for lunch. I sat through the whole meal and chatted pleasently with him and listened to his stories about growing up in this area and then doing television for about 10 years or so before starting with Hewitt. Anyhow, I digress. As we were leaving he held the door open for me and I somehow got a wiff of his scent. I don't know if it was his deoderant or his body wash or a combination of all of the above but it smelled like Joseph... Oh dear goodness it smelled like yesterdays gone by with long summer nights and first loves and nights making out in the car. It smelled like so much. It smelled like the thing I would get a sniff of when I was missing him when I was so in love before. And it just threw me back down memory lane. It made me long for those warm days and exciting nights, the strong arms and the love of the first guy who ever noticed I was a woman. That exciting first kiss... and that smell. I've always loved that smell, and I always will. Just as I will always cherish the summer that I grew up and learned how to really love. I can't and won't go back. I don't want to. The grass isn't greener, but the smell sure is strong... Maybe next time Brian runs out of deoderant I will accidently buy Old Spice instead. Although I have thought about it, and that just wouldn't be fair to any of us. To Brian, because I don't want to make him something he is not. To me, because I don't want to make myself love him for anything other than what he is. Or to Joseph, because he is his own person and to try and steal bits and pieces of him and force them into another person or relationship is just not right or fair. I feel better now that I got it all down. Please, no one get the idea I don't love my (soon to be!) husband. I do with all my heart and soul. And don't think I'm still in love with Joseph, I'm not. That chapter is over. The book continues. But as far as character development, that chapter was fairly crucial so it won't ever go away... kinda like the smell of Old Spice...