Sometimes it's kind of surprising what I see looking back on past entries. Moments in life that I forgot, thoughts I thought about then and still think now. Sometimes it feels like my current self is validated, that things happened and progressed to make me like where I am now. Other times I just feel embarrassed at how I sound, ahaha.

"You two were so close before. And now you just grew apart. That's really sad ( Read more... )

You know, sometimes I go into things, or do things that makes me feel disappointed at myself because I never get to where I want to be-- not even near where I am supposed to be. I never try hard enough for it- I try, trust me, I try to my best of abilities, and to the best of the circumstances around me, but it's never, ever enough. I keep falling ( Read more... )

I scroll through my news feed over at Facebook, and I see those people I was once friends with, going places, or is already somewhere pretty glamorous from here.

And I look at myself, and still, here I am.

(I'm not a supermodel, I'm not someone who's most likely to be president, and I'm not sure if I'm someone who's likely to become a CEO even.)

I ( Read more... )

( for the piano lessons i wanted to take, back then, when i was young )

I sold you, and you sold me ( Read more... )

So I passed ( Read more... )

Have you ever had a day, where at the end of everything that happened, you felt so greatly thankful?

It was supposed to be our sem-ender party today at CWTS, and also the miting de avance of an organization I'm in. I skipped out on the latter (or left early) to attend the former just so I can see my instructor and personally give him my thanks for ( Read more... )

Sometimes I stare at the computer screen, wondering what to do.

I know what I have to do-- I've got a pile of things lined up, calling for my attention. Some I urgently need to finish because the deadline's coming near, and it won't just be me who's gonna be in deep shit if it don't get done. (To be fair, the script I'm supposed to write isn't the ( Read more... )

Have you ever regretted something?

I bet you did. A million things and a million times, countless of moments when you wished you could have done something differently, chose another option, or generally have been a better or different person at that time.

I did too. But I've always kept that certain contentment you get when you're fine with who you ( Read more... )