I'm not the recent Blogger I used to be, anymore ( Read more... )

Only 2 weeks have passed since my last post, this time.
It's amazing how it always feels so much longer though.
The days seem to fly by, looking at the dates, but living them they feel endless...

So what have I been up to?

Basically it may seem like the regular stuff, but I have recognized some really important things, I guess.
I have received the ( Read more... )

Still far away from where I belong
But it's always darkest before the dawn
So you can doubt and you can hate
But I know, no matter what it takes...

Slowly but steadily autumn changes for winter.
Almost all leaves have fallen down from the trees by now, the night comes sooner and sooner every day and even the days feel a lot colder already.
It kind of ( Read more... )

Seems it's been a month since the last time I dropped some lines here, about how things are going or what I'm up to.
Feels like so much longer...

I barely know how or where to start.
It seems like the last time I wrote, I was quite optimistic about my life and about changes for good. I guess I'm not totally pessimistic either, now, but as the leaves ( Read more... )

I did not come here for saving,
I'm just trying to accept
the way it is, the way it is.

Sitting in complete dark, listening to peaceful, thoughtful tunes coming out of my speakers, staring down, from my sofa like a queen from her thrown... enwrapped in my blanket, like in a golden robe...
Shining back at me like all the riches that I own:
The lights of ( Read more... )

So, I am going to split my last days in two entries and gonna start with the eve of 22nd before reviewing my last days from a more personal perspective.

Reason?
This post here is mainly to tell a little abut the event and show off some of the Photos I had taken, whereas the 2nd entry will be more for friends who care about what's happening in my life ( Read more... )

Why is your heart beating?
What pushes you through the day?
Who activates your powers?
Who influences you?
Who guides you to the light?
Who embosses your personal plan of luck?
Who's your guardian angel, your moon, your tailwind?

Lately I'm thinking a lot again. I barely have time to breathe, and if I have some, then I love to "waste" it with people I ( Read more... )

30th of August, the clock is announcing that it's still 20 minutes until 11PM, but I feel horrible tired, as every evening.
I'm happy to announce that lately I get more and more used to spend 9hours in an office every day and 2hours in a bus.
Also much to my surprise it seems I am doing "okay" lately, according to my boss, with who I had a meeting ( Read more... )

It's all around
Getting stronger, coming closer
Into my world
I can feel
That it's time for me to face it
Can I take it..?

Sunday afternoon, guess it's time to give a little update on my life.

This week I had to struggle with my office job after all (surprise) and I had even really down points when I ended up in tears, but I am still not willing to give ( Read more... )

Walking on these streets tonight
I'm feeling numb to everything
Painless heartache haunts me down
It's eating me alive

9th of August already.
And things have changed so dramatically ever since the first of August has passed.
With the start of my career, I feel like my life itself has stopped.
I get up every morning at 7, leave to work by 8, arrive there ( Read more... )