Livejournal, how I've missed you. I know it has almost been a year since I've written in here, and I take full accountability for that travesty. My absence from writing in here has damaged my soul; my mental health has taken a decline for the worst since I "got too busy" to write in here. I've been living life to the fullest, yes, but at what cost ( Read more... )

It's been a rough summer, which followed a very egregious school year, but I now once again see the light outlining this new horizon. I see this illumination, I see beautiful, visceral new worlds and every brilliant beginning. These were my forsaken dreams and I'm glad to hold them within my grasp once more. I want to take a break from college work ( Read more... )

I'm really feeling lost... It's that numbing sensation. I'm too depressed to cry...too hopeless to show emotion. The apathy that weighs me down are the jaws of life that will never let me go.
( My snare... )

One week down, 39 more to go... as co-worker eloquently claimed in an e-mail last Friday.

( Back to school means back to work... )

(Continued from previous post because the lj app has a text posting limit). We also received a lot of support from new dance friends in Atlantia and other troupes like i Sebastiani. We have some die-hard fans in Endless Hills and they hired us to perform at a private party. That was a lot of fun too, despite the incessant rain Thursday.

Otherwise ( Read more... )

So I've reached the last day of my summer vacation. I'm chilling in the car during a mini road trip, so I thought I'd attempt to write via the livejournal application. I apologize because I really do not know how to do a lj-cut while utilizing this application. With the depletion of friends on my list, I doubt anyone really cares a whole lot anyway ( Read more... )

I know it seems like I come and go on here... but to be honest, I'm never really gone. I'm always here reading, or due to the vacancy of my friends page, I sometimes go back and reread what I've written past years. When I write I just have so much to say, it takes awhile to sort it out to make an actual entry. I had an entry I started two months ( Read more... )

Like always... it's been awhile. I've wanted to write actually, but I've been battered, bruised, exhausted, overwhelmed, reading, writing and just trying to do what I can to find both sanity and happiness. The moment I think things are finally getting on track, I feel tossed to the wayside again. My movement through time during the last (almost) ( Read more... )

So I started my new job today... and even though it's better in a lot of ways than a lot of other jobs I've had in the past, day one is over. I anticipate that I will either be journaling a lot, or drinking a lot... or just writing a lot to escape my lonely reality. I'll be doing some really difficult work, I'm living in seclusion four days a week ( Read more... )

Love you, Buddha. I also got a fortune cookie that told me exactly what I needed to hear, "We find comfort among those who agree with us -- growth among those who don't."

( Abandon all hope ye who enter here... )