If you read this entire  post, you might not believe that's a quote from my ex-bf's Facebook profile. Well, it is... even today it is still on there.

It's been a year since my ex-boyfriend broke up with me. It's hard to read all my previous entries here, Facebook, wherever... still... a year later. I see all the shit that's gone down between us. ( Read more... )

Livejournal, how I've missed you. I know it has almost been a year since I've written in here, and I take full accountability for that travesty. My absence from writing in here has damaged my soul; my mental health has taken a decline for the worst since I "got too busy" to write in here. I've been living life to the fullest, yes, but at what cost ( Read more... )

(Continued from previous post because the lj app has a text posting limit). We also received a lot of support from new dance friends in Atlantia and other troupes like i Sebastiani. We have some die-hard fans in Endless Hills and they hired us to perform at a private party. That was a lot of fun too, despite the incessant rain Thursday.

Otherwise ( Read more... )

So I started my new job today... and even though it's better in a lot of ways than a lot of other jobs I've had in the past, day one is over. I anticipate that I will either be journaling a lot, or drinking a lot... or just writing a lot to escape my lonely reality. I'll be doing some really difficult work, I'm living in seclusion four days a week ( Read more... )

I think I have my life back, for the moment at least. I have so much to write about. I have a new car... and other new announcements. Not sure if I'll get there today, but I will update bits and pieces of what I've been doing. So instead of cleaning the house and unpacking, both of which desperately need done, I think it's time for an update. Wow, ( Read more... )

It's been awhile since I've checked in here, and seriously life has been a whirlwind like always... Before I called my mother last week, I honestly couldn't remember the last time I had talked to her even though it seemed like a couple days ago. Well today I searched through my cell phone history and the last time I called was March 24th! Eeeek... ( Read more... )

Things haven't been bad, but they haven't been great. They have just... been. I don't know.

Halloween is over, which always makes me a little sad... I absolutely love it, and it has been a while since I've had an amazing one. This Halloween wasn't bad, per say... but it wasn't the best. It was kind of disheartening.

( Halloween, Loosing a Whole Year... )

I am so exhausted from all the driving I did this weekend, but it was soooo worth it! Well, on the drive back though, I saw 30 deer... and drove very cautiously because I really didn't want to hit any or damage my car. Miserable drive but I succeeded in my objective. My weekend started off on a melancholic note, but it got significantly better. I ( Read more... )

This is a very sad entry... I'm sorry. Please don't be insensitive, I know some people, like my husband, think this is pretty ridiculous. If you do read this entry, please don't look into it literally. It is a symbol of so many things, this entry will always be one of the few to always make me cry. However, because I need to move forward, I shall ( Read more... )

I'm really, really trying to stay positive... Day after day, I feel trapped alone in a dungeon. I hate my job, I hate it all when everything falls apart, and I'm too tired to enjoy my life when I'm mentally exhausted. I feel the beautiful times have fled too quickly, and in other ways I wish this all would pass so I could see the sunlight again. ( Read more... )