I once was the Aurora Borealis; mysterious ribbons of light streaking across the darkness of your life... Astounded, memorized, and in awe... I never saw your glance fade away. Your sacred, secret, silent stare created an illuminating constellation of moments we once shared within the mysterious whisper of the night. With the cessation of dark, ( Read more... )

Yes, says Yoda. Hmmmm... Welcome 2013. It's a new year, new possiblities await. I feel so emotionally drained as I try to wrap up the loose ends of 2012. 2012 was really great until it ended with an emotional earthquake... However, I'm trying to put everything into the past and move forward. 2013 is going to be my year, I just know it. Thirteen is ( Read more... )

The chimes for you resound in a sequestered barracks of my heart…how did this happen? I tried to break this glass once, but you still loved me. I tried so hard to shatter everything you loved; you still wanted to hold me tight. You are my brick wall, but you’ve always stood by me. I gave everything my best try, but I can’t force myself to feel what ( Read more... )

This 5:30 AM entry (even though I’ll be typing a while, lol) is brought to you by my inconsistent, random sleep schedule. It figures, right? I can’t seem to wake up at 5:30 on a day where I have to work (even though it would help me be more ready for the day). However, I seem to be able to arise this time when I am off. Here a lot of schools are ( Read more... )

I have so much to write about, this topic barely scratches the surface. However I am soooo enraged about what I witnessed that I must speak my mind...

( Be who you want to be! )

One week down, 39 more to go... as co-worker eloquently claimed in an e-mail last Friday.

( Back to school means back to work... )

I need a moment to write again. I really shouldn't because even though for ONCE I'm caught up on my doctorate work, I just discovered that I have to write a 46 page legal document due for work by Friday. Not normally a big deal, but it has to be written in a very specified format everyone in the building has been trained on except myself and the ( Read more... )

This day is a lamentation, a relic of many sacrifices. A knell of the moments I've had to let go of too fast... as I've changed and left you behind. A knell of the unspoken mirth you will never hear me say. Shards only remain from the memories that inspire me, wraiths are the remains of those I forever will love. All ephemeral, my dreams, even ( Read more... )

Okay, so it's been a while since this has happened to me, but it is really horrible when you have a conversation with someone, you're honest with your feelings or perspective... but you really shouldn't have been because that person was secretly too emotional about whatever you were offering advice about and whatever you said really wasn't what ( Read more... )

So I wrote an entry yesterday about how I don't embrace the moment, I look to the future. Then ironically, today my meditation group sent me this thought of the day...

( Present or Future? )