Eh. It feels weird. I hate it. And I need to not look at my scale anymore. Haha "It feels weird. I hate it"! How messed up am I, that normal eating behaviors feel weird? That not throwing up feels weird ( Read more... )

I've been trying to quit...by staying away from the ana/mia culture. It's not working. I'm at a standstill ( Read more... )

My room looks like eating disorder central right now. My laxatives are on the windowsill, with my Chuck Palahniuk book and my bowl of cig remains. There's packs of gum strewn everywhere, my measuring tape is on the floor, empty water bottles all over, clothes i tried on and took off on the floor. It's kinda morbidly hilarious ( Read more... )

So I've come to realize that I can't seem to live life without an addiction. Be it binge/purge, sex, a person, gum, cigarettes, a ritual, I can't seem to get by without some sort of dependency. Addictive personality tendencies are difficult to overcome, however I don't think wasting energy trying to overcome is the right route to go. Instead, I ( Read more... )

So here goes ( Read more... )

Okay, so here's my plan for the day ( Read more... )

So, this LJ profile is supposed to be a little secret. It will be purposefully vague at some points, and certain details may be left out. Everything crucial will be there. It's been created as a means of holding myself accountable ( Read more... )