I used to rule the world ( Read more... )

This has proven to be one of the most taxing days I have encountered in months if not years. One of those days where absolutely nothing goes according to plan, and everything takes 4 times the amount of time it should have... old ghosts dug up a lot of self soul searching and q & a sessions between myself  and I... and there's so much I could write ( Read more... )

Ugh Last night I felt miserable, this morning when I woke up I felt worse. No I wasn't drinking, The illusion of free time kills. The break was good all around but now I have this vision of time that really doesnt exist. Maybe I'd have been better off tying myself to a desk and working the whole break? The worst part of this major is how it feels ( Read more... )

The past two weeks have been hell. Like a rollercoaster from up and down emotionally and physically. I feel so drained, raped and fucked. That feeling of "why me" or "what did I do to deserve this" happening far too often for my health... but somehow I pulled through, and withe the help of my friends I made it.... well it continues into next week ( Read more... )

Like a King without his Crown
You keep fallin' down
You really want to live but can't get rid of your frown
Tried to reach unto the heights and wound bound down on the ground
Given up your pride and the you heard a sound
Out of night comes day and out of day comes light
-Matisyahu

*sigh* I'm rather aggitated right now... Somwhere on the ride home just now ( Read more... )

Why is Personal Image such an important thing?
Why is a persons Self Image so different than the actuality more often than not?

It's this Self image that causes people to wear masks or take up fake personalities to play pretend
Maybe those crazy people mumbling on the streets are just people who hate their self image so much they just got lost in some ( Read more... )

 So rather randomly, we decided not to go to expo... many reasons involved (no money, no cosplay, no will, L.A.) but collectively my friends and I decided to do something incredibly random and go back packing in the wilderness for a few days... Crystal Cove is a state park located between between Laguna Beach and Newport Beach 2,000 acres tucked ( Read more... )

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So it’s currently 5:55pm and I’m sitting here at the Oakland Airport Gate 9, waiting for my 7:10 flight back home.

Hmm this week has been abnormal that’s for sure.

This week started with two people of each my best friends doing things that I would think I’d be a lot more upset about. Each one I was and am slightly upset about but I understand ( Read more... )

Wow, I'm really exhausted right now, These past two days have been really freaking exhausting, well yesterday more emotionally and today very physically and mentally exhausting, leaving me just beat but im just sitting here cause my mind cant stop running....  I woke up today in a daze after a very strange dream, well dreams are so rare as of late ( Read more... )