Exhausted...
Wow, I'm really exhausted right now, These past two days have been really freaking exhausting, well yesterday more emotionally and today very physically and mentally exhausting, leaving me just beat but im just sitting here cause my mind cant stop running.... I woke up today in a daze after a very strange dream, well dreams are so rare as of late that they all seem strange but this one definately tops the list, I find it slightly strange that the same day i post a blog about the "guest party member" friends I've had that, that evening I have a dream about my very first freind who left me and started the chain to follow what was weird was the dream was about me meeting up with him again, and time definatly had passed it wasnt like he was always here but we met up again and despite all the time and changes we went though individually we both were still good friends and after we started talking it was like there was nothing between us anymore it really was somewhat of an amazing feeling actually.... we talked about lots of stuff... (more than i can remeber) but one thing i remeber was talking to him about the greatness of the wii and we seemed to bond over that... but whats really weird is as ive been thinking about it all day the wii really is something that Nick would love its really strange and he always did dig things like that... Nick was my best friend, a very strange kid with some probelms he was such a strange kid that i remeber that he made me feel normal in almost every aspect but he taught me a lot because though he was a very troubled kid and had a lot of problems all of his problems were actually not his doing they we're things that society had problems with it wasnt his doing and he didnt care.... He left me in the 6th grade much to his dissatisfaction because his Dad's company was relocating, but he left such a profound effect on me and prospective about so many things and i enjoyed hanging out with him so much that even after he left me for many years i still considered him my best friend even with very little contact... a postcard once a year or less... I did look up my friend many years later about 4 years ago now when my family went to vacation on the east coast he was on his second or third move and was now located in a small town in New York, it was really weird because after the initial awkwardness of meeting after so many years we got to talking and much like the dream we got along together really well depite our tastes and interests being very different now and almost nothing in common anymore... but we went to his local pool and had a few meals together and talked and it really was one of those things im so glad i did in my life looking up a long lost friend. He had a whole bunch of new friends was deeply into religon (something i got him into intiially believe it or not...) and was studing something i couldnt even pronounce nonetheless could comprehend doing for the rest of my life but best of all he was happy with his new life and that made me happy. So heres to Nick my long lost best friend, who should be finishing his college career this year or next? somewhere in New York... Lord knows the deeper meaning behind me having this dream and i have some ideas of how it relates to my current situations/friends but only time will tell, as for now it was really nice to have a deep look back into my past that i somewhat forget from time to time because of painful memorys and feelings... I do want to look up Nick again oneday and maybe we can bond over the awesomeness that is the wii or whatever strange things i can dream up untill then sweet dreams kids,
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