Razorburn.
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So it’s currently 5:55pm and I’m sitting here at the Oakland Airport Gate 9, waiting for my 7:10 flight back home.
Hmm this week has been abnormal that’s for sure.
This week started with two people of each my best friends doing things that I would think I’d be a lot more upset about. Each one I was and am slightly upset about but I understand and I can see each of their reasonings for their choices. So I understand and it sucks for me but :/ not much I can do about it. They are making choices that affect their own happiness and well being and I can’t say much to oppose so instead I say make sure your decision is worth it and it’s what you really want to do. Rash decisions are often regretted and no one likes that feeling. But after the fact I actually felt a lot better (far better than I thought I would have been in both situations if you gave me a heads up either was going to happen)
This weeks mood progression has gone like this….
I felt really good.
I felt horrible.
I feel bland.
And that’s where I’m at now today has been far less than worth wile and a lot has happened to make today “bad day worthy” even just on my way here to the airport . But whatever I’m trying not to let it affect me too much. I’m tired as hell, being able to sleep last night would have been good for today but whatever I’m used to not sleeping by now right? Pfft, whatever.
I’m scared as hell at the parallels between my life and that of another person God has put in my life recently we have so much in common our situations are exactly the same and the results turn out exactly the same. It’s scary as hell. But I almost consider it a gift or a messenger from God that I’m not alone, and I’m not the only one to ever feel this way cause theirs someone else who feels the same way right over there. “Nice Guys Finish Last,” such an appropriate title for the story of my life but hopefully it doesn’t end up that way. And we will finish at least in the end right? Who knows at this point. God’s reasoning’s and motives don’t seem to make much sense anymore. I don’t know I’m just confused as hell right now.
How do you feel? Razor burn. I feel like Razor burn. I let it grow out for too long and finally did something I’d been meaning to do for a while and it’s the right thing to do. It just burns like hell right now as an after affect. The stinging should lessen with time and go away completely (till next time?) Razor burn is a bitch.
But I’m headed home right now and I’ve been looking forward to going home all week so I’m going to make the most of it and try and enjoy myself as much as possible cause nobody wants a weepy or sad breda around just cause hes havin a bad day or week or whatever >.>;
LATER
DC