So...today is a sucky day. I called to talk to Mom and Dom and talked to Mom..and she told me that apparently she isn't even going to come down here. Even though I bought her tickets and everything...she's worried about not being able to afford to get back to Hawaii from here because it's so much more expensive and she wants to be back there before ( Read more... )

So, on top of the house being foreclosed on, my body being broken, collections people hassling me, my Dad..being my Dad and just general stress, my Grandpa John died today ( Read more... )

Life is stressful, like..I don't know if I'm going to have somewhere to live in two months stressful. Still waiting with the rest of my immediate family for WTF is going on with the HUD thing to save Mom's house. -sigh- She's angry and depressed and worried about it and I understand ( Read more... )

I used to write once..and RP and take photos and be creative. I used to have friends and look forward to seeing them every month. I used to be happy and have a family and space and people to talk to. Depression slowly ate it and then life dumped me on my ass with nothing and walked away with my wallet ( Read more... )

So for the past few months things have been...OK. I'm lonely because my SO has been in Oklahoma training and I haven't really seen much of him since about June and haven't seen him at all since September but I've been managing OK ( Read more... )

I make life difficult for myself. It's not like I don't know that. When I get depressed I get angry and I lash out and I alienate people because some part of me wants to be alone and thinks I don't deserve friends and obviously people leave me alone because they think it's what I want and so my depression just feeds on it's-self and such ( Read more... )

So I signed the lease renewal yesterday, signing myself into this...place for another year. It hurt to know I was going to be stuck here yet longer but there was really not a lot that could be done about it, there was nowhere for us to go and no way we could manage getting there even if we found somewhere ( Read more... )

So let's see my life so far this year ( Read more... )

So..a warning. I'm gonna be talking about every so sensitive topics..like..SEX and RELATIONSHIPS and GENDER IDENTITY so if you have a problem with that..I suggest you avoid the cut..

( I'm a cut to save you! )

So I have a little over a month to pack up my stuff and find a place I can afford to move to. Gonna be throwing a lot of stuff away..decided that pretty quickly. Will start on the 26th when I can afford boxes and trash bags. First step, the bedroom..from there everything should be easy enough ( Read more... )