Keep on keeping on
So I signed the lease renewal yesterday, signing myself into this...place for another year. It hurt to know I was going to be stuck here yet longer but there was really not a lot that could be done about it, there was nowhere for us to go and no way we could manage getting there even if we found somewhere.
I called my Dad for Fathers Day, of course he didn't answer, he never answers and I doubt he'll call me back. Sometimes I feel like he's avoiding me, we might not be close but he's the only dad I have and I'm his only kid..I keep trying to make things work with him despite all the shit he's put me through but it just doesn't seem to be important to him. I'm on the verge of just giving up, not entirely sure why I bother anyway..
I feel like I'm stuck in a rut right now, staying up all night and sleeping all day because Alaric works from 10PM to 4 or 5AM these days and so we don't go to bed until 7AM or later sometimes and sleep until 5PM. I miss the sun and getting things done, he never wants to do stuff before work and on the weekends it's just..yeah.
I'm not sure what's going to happen in the future, I'm trying very hard to be positive. I would welcome some sort of positive change in my life and I'm hoping for it. It's not easy because it seems like it so rarely happens but I wont give up.
Nothing else to say I suppose. Just working my way through things one day at a time right now.
I called my Dad for Fathers Day, of course he didn't answer, he never answers and I doubt he'll call me back. Sometimes I feel like he's avoiding me, we might not be close but he's the only dad I have and I'm his only kid..I keep trying to make things work with him despite all the shit he's put me through but it just doesn't seem to be important to him. I'm on the verge of just giving up, not entirely sure why I bother anyway..
I feel like I'm stuck in a rut right now, staying up all night and sleeping all day because Alaric works from 10PM to 4 or 5AM these days and so we don't go to bed until 7AM or later sometimes and sleep until 5PM. I miss the sun and getting things done, he never wants to do stuff before work and on the weekends it's just..yeah.
I'm not sure what's going to happen in the future, I'm trying very hard to be positive. I would welcome some sort of positive change in my life and I'm hoping for it. It's not easy because it seems like it so rarely happens but I wont give up.
Nothing else to say I suppose. Just working my way through things one day at a time right now.