Meh.
I make life difficult for myself. It's not like I don't know that. When I get depressed I get angry and I lash out and I alienate people because some part of me wants to be alone and thinks I don't deserve friends and obviously people leave me alone because they think it's what I want and so my depression just feeds on it's-self and such.
Right now I'm stressed out, upset, worried and frustrated. I know I'm being a big mean meanie pants but I just can't seem to help it. I'm sure half my doll group thinks I'm some huge bluh bitch and the few friends I have left I hardly talk to and I yell at everyone else most of the time.
I'm hurt and tired. I'm sick of being a grownup. I'm tired of being depressed. I just want somebody to talk to, who will listen and not judge or make assumptions that I want help fixing things.
I'm not enjoying life much right now. -sigh-
Right now I'm stressed out, upset, worried and frustrated. I know I'm being a big mean meanie pants but I just can't seem to help it. I'm sure half my doll group thinks I'm some huge bluh bitch and the few friends I have left I hardly talk to and I yell at everyone else most of the time.
I'm hurt and tired. I'm sick of being a grownup. I'm tired of being depressed. I just want somebody to talk to, who will listen and not judge or make assumptions that I want help fixing things.
I'm not enjoying life much right now. -sigh-