I love you too life.
So for the past few months things have been...OK. I'm lonely because my SO has been in Oklahoma training and I haven't really seen much of him since about June and haven't seen him at all since September but I've been managing OK.
Today though everything decided it was going to fall apart. I took my cat to the vet since, now that we have money, I wanted to get him fixed and get all his shots and stuff that I've been neglecting due to lack of funds. The vet called not long after we dropped him off to tell me that she heard a heart murmur and was concerned about it being something more serious. Though she said it could be just because he was nervous it being his first vet visit and the like.
I of course lacking sleep reacted rather badly to this news and when she told me it would likely costs upwards of $800 to do an EKG(which she suggested just in case) I nearly passed out.
Right now we are going to wait a few weeks and take him back in so she can listen to his heart again with me there to keep him calm. She took some x-rays and I guess nothing seems out of the ordinary but she didn't tell me. I really miss our old vet right now.
Then I was talking to my SO and got asked where the money that his job gave us to relocate went and I had to tell him honestly I didn't know. A lot of it went on my Mom's plane tickets back from Arizona which I shouldn't have had to pay for but did and had to pay more to get her home when she was supposed to instead of waiting longer. I really need her here for transportation and company since I have no car or license. -_- She didn't want to come back because she and my step-dad are in the talks of divorce and I don't blame her but..ugh.
So I'm feeling guilty as hell for all sorts of things, worried about my cat and stressed out beyond belief. Selling dolls again even though I had hoped I wouldn't have to because it's the only way for me to raise back the money for our move and have money just in case Marshie does need that EKG.
Right now I don't know how we are going to manage anything, the market is slow and nobody wants to pay for anything. I have nobody I can ask for a loan and I only have $177 saved up. We still have to pay for the rest of having the new engine put in the car and I just don't know what to do.
It seems like the only time something interesting happens in my life is when I'm struck with sudden misery.
At any rate of any of you know of people with money who might want some limited and rare dolls or just a cheap resinsoul and can pay in full by December 17th please let me know!
Today though everything decided it was going to fall apart. I took my cat to the vet since, now that we have money, I wanted to get him fixed and get all his shots and stuff that I've been neglecting due to lack of funds. The vet called not long after we dropped him off to tell me that she heard a heart murmur and was concerned about it being something more serious. Though she said it could be just because he was nervous it being his first vet visit and the like.
I of course lacking sleep reacted rather badly to this news and when she told me it would likely costs upwards of $800 to do an EKG(which she suggested just in case) I nearly passed out.
Right now we are going to wait a few weeks and take him back in so she can listen to his heart again with me there to keep him calm. She took some x-rays and I guess nothing seems out of the ordinary but she didn't tell me. I really miss our old vet right now.
Then I was talking to my SO and got asked where the money that his job gave us to relocate went and I had to tell him honestly I didn't know. A lot of it went on my Mom's plane tickets back from Arizona which I shouldn't have had to pay for but did and had to pay more to get her home when she was supposed to instead of waiting longer. I really need her here for transportation and company since I have no car or license. -_- She didn't want to come back because she and my step-dad are in the talks of divorce and I don't blame her but..ugh.
So I'm feeling guilty as hell for all sorts of things, worried about my cat and stressed out beyond belief. Selling dolls again even though I had hoped I wouldn't have to because it's the only way for me to raise back the money for our move and have money just in case Marshie does need that EKG.
Right now I don't know how we are going to manage anything, the market is slow and nobody wants to pay for anything. I have nobody I can ask for a loan and I only have $177 saved up. We still have to pay for the rest of having the new engine put in the car and I just don't know what to do.
It seems like the only time something interesting happens in my life is when I'm struck with sudden misery.
At any rate of any of you know of people with money who might want some limited and rare dolls or just a cheap resinsoul and can pay in full by December 17th please let me know!