My mom told me not to burn bridges. It's hard. All I want to do is never see him again. I meant to talk to him again before deciding how I feel, but I know how I want to feel. I want to hate him. I want to believe he's never going to date me again. I want to believe he's just going to get back together with that psycho bitch of an ex of his. I don' ( Read more... )

UHHFFF. I was supposed to go eat dinner at my aunt and uncle's house, and my uncle said he'd call me, but he never did, and then I took a nap before I was going to go but overslept, and they didn't call, so I didn't go, and now I feel dumb and hungry. ): I really needed to talk to them about moving, too ( Read more... )

What the fuck is this band I heard this song in Wet Seal and it is the best thing that has ever happened to me. His voice is so sexy WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF ( Read more... )

I bought a Nico album, fuckin yum. And a His Name Is Alive album which I probably should not have done, and a The Hives album which I should've done a long time ago ( Read more... )

My trip to Utah was not bad at alllll. It was sad at John's memorial service and it was really sad when we spread the ashes and it was sad here and there elsewhere. And I had wanted to go to his house at first but now I'm kind of glad I didn't because there was a brief second at some point where I thought we were going and I got such a black ( Read more... )

Nnnngh ( Read more... )

Congratulations, Jennifer, you have mastered the art of nagging. So perfect, so clever to do it while waking me up when I cannot even begin to intelligently respond or defend myself. You don't even seem to give it any thought, the shit that pours out of your mouth. Has it occurred to you, dearest Jennifer, to ponder my reasons for not setting an ( Read more... )

I feel like endless shit ( Read more... )

I don't even know where to begin or. What to say or what to do. No matter where I am, no matter what my life is doing, I end up feeling fucked up and trapped. Every single time, I could just swear I have never felt more messed up than I do then, and this time is no different ( Read more... )

Whoakay I am like dying slightly, hhho man. I am trying to find out if anyone would commission me, and it is sort of killlliinnggg me with anxiety. But man, even just like. A few bucks here or there would be awesome and make me feel soooooooo good about myself. Lol well. Doing commissions gives me such ridiculous levels of stress. But gosh, I ( Read more... )