Again tonight i'm writing. I kind of hate myself for giving you those letters because i have written so much more on here... i hardly even remember what i gave you. I miss you. Tonight i came home and i am alone. I've done this a few nights now, but for some reason i miss you so much right now. What i would do just to feel you. I had a dream a few ( Read more... )

At work today, the people were so rude. Not sure why... but very impatient. i worked with Travis who keeps me pretty entertained. But i'm sure i was really quiet today. I've been feeling so angry lately. Like so pissed off.... my emotions are seriously out of control. I can hardly function. I have to leave for school soon... and i'll probably cry ( Read more... )

Was so bad, weird, i dont even know. I lost it for jason. I was doing so good, and i lost control. It sucked... i even called him and tried txting him. I felt like i didn't care. I felt like i was making this easy for him and i wanted it to be hard like it is on me. Even though i know it is hard on him. I just wanted him to make me understand what ( Read more... )

Tonight is a bad night for this. I miss you so much i can't even stand it. I even caved and called you. I've tried to be strong, i've tried so hard. But i can't shut my brain off, therefore i can't stop crying. The only thing i regret at this point. Is leaving. I should have stayed and tried to talk to you. But like you i run away. I feel like i' ( Read more... )

Last night there was an eclipse. Nikki came over and we didn't even know there was supposed to be one. We were stilling in the room talking and noticed... uhh.. wasn't that moon full a few hours ago when you got here? So we watched it.. and sure enough. Very cool. I'm glad she came over because i probably would have slept through it. I txt you last ( Read more... )

Last night i had a dream and you were in it. I'm not sure exactly what happened... i think it was just a memory. Because in my dream we were downstairs on the couch and you were with your head on my lap and i was playing with your hair. I remember looking down and feeling the happiest i have in almost 2 weeks. You didn't even say anything and i ( Read more... )

It's amazing to me how much of a history you can have with someone, and with the flip of a switch the mind will stop caring and risk everything. Men are amazing to me, give them a little responsibility and it's too overwhelming. Not in most cases, but in cases where the man has been spoiled his whole life. I knew this about Jason, i knew he was ( Read more... )

So i haven't written in a while and i'm bored right now waiting for desperate housewives to get done so jason and i can go watch ted bundy and the zodiac killer. As for an update on my life.. i don't even know where to begin. So i guess i'll start with the easiest ( Read more... )

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