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So i haven't written in a while and i'm bored right now waiting for desperate housewives to get done so jason and i can go watch ted bundy and the zodiac killer. As for an update on my life.. i don't even know where to begin. So i guess i'll start with the easiest.
School is going well. It's not as difficult anymore... it is starting to get easier. Everything is basically just repeated. Practice makes perfect. The only thing i do now is sit and worship every girl in my class. I'm the youngest one in it and i'm good friends with the oldest. She is great. Her name is Charity and she gets me through everything. Very supportive and puts me in my place. I'm glad she likes me... because she doesnt like anyone else. She said i am more mature than these other girls. Which.. not gonna lie.. i wouldnt doubt. A lot of them are so bitchy. Seriously. Also.. i am jealous of most of them... because most of them do not work.. and have their parents or boyfriends still supporting them... or tribes acutally. Taya gets everything. She is Indian so like kyle gets everything paid for and handed to her. Fuck indians... i think we've paid our dues by now. Idk what my ancestors did 200 years ago.. its over and i think they are just as capable as anyone else to make money by working and getting paid the same as everyone else. It's not fair. So yeah.. but anyway- I'm on the deans list so that's pretty sweet. i am just hoping this isn't a waste of time.
As far as family goes. I am technically homeless at the moment. I live in jason's home... but my parents are living in a motor home and my brothers are staying in my parents friends house. Jim THANK GOD is moving to Michigan for the summer to stay with my grandparents. I am so happy about that. He is going to be much better off... and plus i wont have to worry about him. My mom is working 2 jobs and my dad is drinking whiskey/coke all day long and doing coke lines with his friend. My friend from work told me because her dad does it with him. Nice eh? He's letting himself go. I think it's because he has life insurance and he thinks if he just dies that everyone will be happy. I wish he didn't have to feel that way... but there is nothing i can do. i praise him, but i know not enough... mainly because there isn't anything to praise him about. Like when he buys food and gives us stuff randomly in the year... we thank him and smile and laugh with him... but idk.. as far as work... we're homeless.. what did he do right? Mike is going to be going to Renton i believe to stay with his girlfriend. Right now i'm living at Jason's house... all my stuff is in his garage and trunk of his car. I hate this. I mean living at jasons isn't bad... not at all.. but it's just that i want my own home... a place i can call my home. It's crazy the little things people don't appreciate but should. It's so true... i don't think there is almost any statement close to this that could be more true and that is, "You don't know what you've got until it's gone" Truuuuuue. I'm thankful more than anything to have so many people who care about me. That is the only reason im not in a box is because of these people. It's hard though... it really is to smile but i try and keep my head up and not think about it... and it helps.
I bought a new car.. new to me car. It's a 93 camry... and it's BURGUNDY!! it has an alarm system and air bags... and if my seatbelt isn't buckled.. it wont let me put the car in drive.. funny huh?!? it's cute. I LOVE it. I bought it for $2000 from jasons aunt. I love his family... everyone is so wonderful. It's nice being around love.
Jason and i are not engaged yet. Ha.. but we have been together for 9.5 months. He is the most amazing person in my life... i can't even think of the words to describe how much he means to me and how i wouldn't be where i am today.... without him. I can't see myself happier with anyone else. The longest we've gone without seeing each other now.. is 12 days.... and that was his first week of college. Freakin.. i remember crying on the phone because i missed him so much... and then him crying the next night. God... it was so pathetic. But i love his so much. We will undoubtedly get married someday... and i can't wait. If we don't though... i already know.. i will always dwell on our past. Everything will remind me of him... and i could never move on. God, i love him.
So all in all... things suck.. but aren't so bad. There i things i wish i could change... but in the meantime are unchangeable. Soon though, soon things will get moving again. Goodnight until next time. XoxOxXOOxoOx
School is going well. It's not as difficult anymore... it is starting to get easier. Everything is basically just repeated. Practice makes perfect. The only thing i do now is sit and worship every girl in my class. I'm the youngest one in it and i'm good friends with the oldest. She is great. Her name is Charity and she gets me through everything. Very supportive and puts me in my place. I'm glad she likes me... because she doesnt like anyone else. She said i am more mature than these other girls. Which.. not gonna lie.. i wouldnt doubt. A lot of them are so bitchy. Seriously. Also.. i am jealous of most of them... because most of them do not work.. and have their parents or boyfriends still supporting them... or tribes acutally. Taya gets everything. She is Indian so like kyle gets everything paid for and handed to her. Fuck indians... i think we've paid our dues by now. Idk what my ancestors did 200 years ago.. its over and i think they are just as capable as anyone else to make money by working and getting paid the same as everyone else. It's not fair. So yeah.. but anyway- I'm on the deans list so that's pretty sweet. i am just hoping this isn't a waste of time.
As far as family goes. I am technically homeless at the moment. I live in jason's home... but my parents are living in a motor home and my brothers are staying in my parents friends house. Jim THANK GOD is moving to Michigan for the summer to stay with my grandparents. I am so happy about that. He is going to be much better off... and plus i wont have to worry about him. My mom is working 2 jobs and my dad is drinking whiskey/coke all day long and doing coke lines with his friend. My friend from work told me because her dad does it with him. Nice eh? He's letting himself go. I think it's because he has life insurance and he thinks if he just dies that everyone will be happy. I wish he didn't have to feel that way... but there is nothing i can do. i praise him, but i know not enough... mainly because there isn't anything to praise him about. Like when he buys food and gives us stuff randomly in the year... we thank him and smile and laugh with him... but idk.. as far as work... we're homeless.. what did he do right? Mike is going to be going to Renton i believe to stay with his girlfriend. Right now i'm living at Jason's house... all my stuff is in his garage and trunk of his car. I hate this. I mean living at jasons isn't bad... not at all.. but it's just that i want my own home... a place i can call my home. It's crazy the little things people don't appreciate but should. It's so true... i don't think there is almost any statement close to this that could be more true and that is, "You don't know what you've got until it's gone" Truuuuuue. I'm thankful more than anything to have so many people who care about me. That is the only reason im not in a box is because of these people. It's hard though... it really is to smile but i try and keep my head up and not think about it... and it helps.
I bought a new car.. new to me car. It's a 93 camry... and it's BURGUNDY!! it has an alarm system and air bags... and if my seatbelt isn't buckled.. it wont let me put the car in drive.. funny huh?!? it's cute. I LOVE it. I bought it for $2000 from jasons aunt. I love his family... everyone is so wonderful. It's nice being around love.
Jason and i are not engaged yet. Ha.. but we have been together for 9.5 months. He is the most amazing person in my life... i can't even think of the words to describe how much he means to me and how i wouldn't be where i am today.... without him. I can't see myself happier with anyone else. The longest we've gone without seeing each other now.. is 12 days.... and that was his first week of college. Freakin.. i remember crying on the phone because i missed him so much... and then him crying the next night. God... it was so pathetic. But i love his so much. We will undoubtedly get married someday... and i can't wait. If we don't though... i already know.. i will always dwell on our past. Everything will remind me of him... and i could never move on. God, i love him.
So all in all... things suck.. but aren't so bad. There i things i wish i could change... but in the meantime are unchangeable. Soon though, soon things will get moving again. Goodnight until next time. XoxOxXOOxoOx