I'm sitting here with my coffee, the fan is blowing on me but it is not really all that hot. It's been a very pleasant morning, for August, here in Livermore. There are no clouds in the sky. The temperature is in the mid 80's Fahrenheit. I had read "the news" and was making coffee and heard in my head, DJ playing The 5th Dimension's "Wedding Bell ( Read more... )

The lady who is the chief of staff sent me an e-mail this morning to welcome me to The QCC. That would be the Quarter Century Club in the enterprise where I work. I'm not sure what to think about getting this e-mail. She mentions scheduling a virtual meeting with the CEO, virtual only because the company HQ is in Chicago. She continues that I can ( Read more... )

Lauralee's homework assignment: go talk to Hoss. Hoss, Prince Lir, Mr. Heart. Why him? Does she expect that part of me to tell me something heretofore unspoken? The conversation concerns what I want. Where is my desire? What is my intention? Does Hoss know these things? I do know one thing: Hoss knows what he likes, when he sees it, but is Hoss ( Read more... )

I'm 59 years old and I'm two decades divorced from nearly two decades of relationship and marriage to one woman, I'm the father of children grown to adulthood. I'm on a couple of dating apps. I date women roughly my age. It is interesting to read for what women say they are looking, in terms of a relationship.

There are women on these apps who ( Read more... )

I turned 708 months old today. My brother texted me a birthday greeting. Renee and the grandsons and Lee called me on the phone and the Discord app, respectively.

How do I describe my mood? I write: "boogie down, somberly," heh: absinthe with a paper umbrella. Yeah, let's groove. I am restless and lonely. It is difficult to write it. I don't want ( Read more... )

"A woman wants a bad guy to be nice just for her. A man wants a nice girl to be bad just for him."
-- anonymous commenter from the internet

So much of my reading lately concerns the deflection of feelings. Why do people do that? The IFS people say that we are wounded or damaged by traumas, growing up. Listening to or reading some of these IFS people, their claim is that most people, world-wide, receive insufficient nurture while they are children, typically, because their caregivers ( Read more... )

Last Friday, I was sitting here in my cube, around lunchtime, having just returned from my walk, and I had closed my eyes and was enjoying the feel of the fan on my back. It wasn't exactly meditation and it wasn't sleeping. A scene of winter came into my mind, from what inspiration I don't know. I imagine standing in a field of brown dead and ( Read more... )

Birds Do It, Bees Do It
Well, I think summer has finally decided to show. I've been running the air-conditioner again. Everything is in bloom. The air smells wonderful everywhere. I've been walking again, at lunch time. I'm not going very far, at the present, just a fifteen minute stroll around this section of the commercial park to get some ( Read more... )

I met someone on OKStupid and I went on a date. Her name is Michele, and she dropped me a line on the fourth and we exchanged a few messages and a phone call and set up a time to meet. Our date ran from seven to eight at Starbucks here in town. We had a nice conversation ( Read more... )