My psych doctor had ordered some blood work done to find out why I was so lethargic all the time. I could sleep all night, wake up and two hours later be sound asleep again for hours. Blood work showed low vitamin D levels, some extra white cell counts and problems with my kidneys (yike here we go again) I was suppose to see my primary care doc ( Read more... )

so i broke down and called step dad to ask for a ride before the big ass snow storm hits so i could get my shopping done with out the hassle of the bus ( Read more... )

open letter to my RL family *lj friends and family ignore if you wish*

( RANT BE HERE *FEEL FREE TO IGNORE* )

ok i know that's weird. but i had a bit of an epiphany yesterday.
i'm too much like sanzo.
jaded, closed off, unwilling to open up to people in general. *and yeah i see the irony there since i whine and moan about virtually everything here in my journal* i just don't let anyone see the deeper part that is the real cause of my pain. i don't mean ( Read more... )

any one remember when i said i was going to apply for state aid for my water bill??? well................it got approved with one great big hitch.

my total bill was in the 500. range. well they will pay 170 something but not before i pay the remaining balance. OMG WTF? if i had that much money i would have payed the bill and i wouldn't be in this ( Read more... )

hey all i got the major correction of a life time on Y! gallery an was asked to "pass" it on to all my fanfic writhing friends. *snerk*  yeah right..
this is from the story post of dream a little dream pt 1.

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""Please. Please learn how to spell the word LOSE. There's only ( Read more... )

well now i know...
i sent an i.m. to my stepdad today and asked if mom knew i had the surgery?
he wrote back that she knew i was having it but not when so dad told her that it was done.. and then she said "i hope she is doing well"

WTF???

and she can't pick up the fucking phone to see for her self. 
THE FUCKING BITCH CAN'T EVEN CALL TO SEE HOW I'M ( Read more... )

due to my kind generous fairly forgiving nature i tried again...
this time spoke to mom directly and asked if i could please get a ride to the store so i could get toilet paper and kitty litter since the day before had been  so tiring and rough.  "sure dad's out paying the bills now and when he's done.." well you get the point. so what happened? ( Read more... )

i'm in a sanzo mood
nothing about any one here just the people in private life. i.e. family.

it really bugs the hell out of me how my family treats me sometimes.

example 1: when i was still driving i would get the royal command to drive mom and or sis somewhere and if i couldn't all hell would break loose. it never mattered that i was in the middle ( Read more... )