From my Facebook note, "Scotland V - St Rule's Tower" - 02/10/2009 10:07 AM

I've decided to write a note, but I'm not quite sure what to express. I just finished walking back from Arleta's after I walked her home. It was a good night with my friends. But on the way home I began thinking more about what the present - now - is to me. In assessing the ( Read more... )

Truly I do ( Read more... )

oh dear. things are pretty terrible inside of my head right now. it is likely that few people will read this.

i have one big question:

what is so wrong with my personality that i am entirely unpleasant to be with or even to know?in all honesty, that is all i can derive from the current state of things. no friends. no family. it's pretty difficult ( Read more... )

my friends are so amazing. 
alex is a great friend and a great roommate. 
he and sarah (who is sweet, always available to listen, and genuinely cares about so many people) make an amazing couple and i love them dearly. 
brenda is away at school and i miss her so much. she and i are so close and she is so important to me. i have been realizing that ( Read more... )

i apologize. i am sorry for never telling you anything good. more frequently i will make you want to rip off your ears with my inane remarks/complaints. how gracious you all are to put up with this. please Jesus have mercy on me. i miss all of you guys from high school. i miss talking to my friends between classes and having lunch with you guys. i ( Read more... )

the other day, half of my documents were lost. long story, but regardless, i was rather upset. i lost many songs i had typed up, or written on paper, then somewhat finished on computer, and i had folders of songs and other things, like music, people's numbers, and many pictures over the years. they are all gone now. it was really depressing, but ( Read more... )

our lives are short. what we do most is what is most important to us. maybe people can be numb to it all and live aimlessly, but i essence, what we carry most of our lives with, is what matters. if we spend most of our money on clothes, clothes are the most important thing we think we can spend money on. if we spend it on music, then music is most ( Read more... )

i hardly update this journal, even when things are happening. the solid state tour was awesome. every band did very well despite the rather short sets that the house of blues anaheim decided to pull on them. those bands encourage me a lot. what other tour would take two days off for a retreat in the mountains to grow in their faith or make big band ( Read more... )

sometimes people may feel like they are all alone here on earth. Jesus is there, He is more than i could ever want or need, but it's always comforting to have that special blessing here on earth. not that person who you would call your girlfriend/boyfriend. that person that you would call your best friend. that person that could know you, and know ( Read more... )

wow, it's been almost two months since i've last written in this thing. i decided to take a day off today. it's not like me, but i'm never absent, so i just wanted to take a day off. i didn't feel good this morning anyway. yeah, life is so interesting. God always throws things in there to spice it up. it makes us stronger, that is, unless we decide ( Read more... )