oh dear. things are pretty terrible inside of my head right now. it is likely that few people will read this.

i have one big question:

what is so wrong with my personality that i am entirely unpleasant to be with or even to know?in all honesty, that is all i can derive from the current state of things. no friends. no family. it's pretty difficult ( Read more... )

so many wonderful people exist and walk about all around me. yet i feel detached. i don't know what the future holds. i've lost a mother who was never there. i am free from her bondage, yet i am still quite empty. there is a pamela jean shaped hole in my heart and Jesus has only chosen to fill part of it. i know why He leaves the rest. i know why i ( Read more... )

you've caused me to think twice about everything. i don't even know what i feel right now. all i do know is that Christ has me up in His arms and i'd love to leave this world even for a second, but i am remaining because there are so many things here that i ought to do and so many things that i have been doing that i shouldn't be. i need to right ( Read more... )

ah. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. lonely. ( Read more... )

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sorry friends

so many times, even when i try so hard, i fail. sorry friends. sorry.

how can all of our eyes believe such pitiful lies ( Read more... )

sometimes people can be so mean; and you're that person, elijah wade.

holy cow, it's all over.

someday everyone will know and understand me and they won't be my friend because they know and understand me. Jesus is so amazing. He helps me out so much and encourages me even though i may have many flaws, i can do anything and i can be happy even knowing that i stink, because i know that He rocks and that He has a future of me and that i am ( Read more... )