So in order to nip some of the crap I have dealt with for years I am going to start writing in this journal more often, hopefully everyday.  I am trying to lose weight.  I have had weight issues since I was about 10 years old.  Though it really wasn't that bad until I went to college and gained alot.  I have been hovering around 225-230 range for a ( Read more... )

My favorite Elvis song is definitely An American Trilogy.  The last part where the band builds up to the last verse gives me goosebumps every time I hear it.  I think its the build up, then the all male backup singers coming in and then Elvis that gives me that powerful feeling.  When I was young I enjoyed his earlier hits and the ones he sang in ( Read more... )

After over two years of waiting Conrad Murray is finally on trial for the death of Michael Jackson.  I refuse to call him doctor because I feel he doesn't deserve that title.  I want his license taken away more than anything because that will affect his life long term.  He is a disgrace to the medical profession.  If I were a doctor I would be ( Read more... )

Well today was a slow day...lol  I didn't get up and work out early as planned.  Its so hard for me to get out of bed in the morning.  My dreams are usually so good and vivid that I want to just stay in bed and dream about what could be instead of having to deal with my sucky mundane life.  Yes I am a major sleep addict.  I have been since I was ( Read more... )

Yesterday was the two year anniversary of Michael Jackson's death.  It actually didn't hit me too hard so I guess I have come to accept that he is gone.  I think the 4 years leading up to his death, a time that I 'separated' myself from him, helped.  My interest in him has come and gone throughout my life.  When he was charged with child ( Read more... )

I was first introduced to Satanism when I was a sophomore in high school.  Marilyn Manson came out with an album called Anti Christ Superstar and was also doing a ton of interviews on MTV to promote it.  I found him fascinating!  Everything he said was true, he was very articulate and smart.  Around that time I had been confirmed as a member of the ( Read more... )

Lately I have been so down on life.  I know what I would like to do in life but it is just hard getting there.  One thing that does help is being around other people.  I am an introvert so it is hard but when I do hang out with others I get energized.  I wish I could wake up with that kind of energy every morning.  Alot of my life's problems would ( Read more... )

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I'm sorry but I won't be donating to any of the charities you are pushing.  You see I am currently making less than 20,000 dollars a year, trying to pay off student loans and looking at going back to do yet more school in an attempt to make a bit more money.  I know many of you probably have no clue what it is like to live this way.  Many of you ( Read more... )