Update
So in order to nip some of the crap I have dealt with for years I am going to start writing in this journal more often, hopefully everyday. I am trying to lose weight. I have had weight issues since I was about 10 years old. Though it really wasn't that bad until I went to college and gained alot. I have been hovering around 225-230 range for a number of years now. Time to deal with it and get it over with! I seriously read some of my journal entires from years ago and every one is about losing weight. It is rather sad that this has been a goal I have never accomplished for over 10 years now.
I am now reading this book called Stop Eating Your Heart Out. Its says that daily journaling is a must because it is an outlet for your feelings. I am an emotional eater so this totally makes sense to me.
That is where this journal comes into play. I am hoping to start writing everyday about whatever is going through my mind.
Today I met with my counselor. We talked about me being stand offish towards others. I have noticed this recently about myself so its sort of interesting that she pointed it out to me. She mentioned that she has noticed whens he greets me I am not always warm but rather cold. I don't know why I am like this as I am not like that always, which she noted. I told her that I am not one to make small talk. It rather bores me and I feel it is stupid to pretend to care about how someone's day is going. Maybe its just me that doesn't really care? I only ask that sort of thing to be polite, because I feel it is an obligation. Not out of genuine concern. Or maybe I should say I only ask it genuinely if I like someone or if its someone close. I feel asking how someone's day is going is pointless because most people will say it is going good regardless if that is the truth or not. At least that is always what I have been told to do as you don't want to be a Debbie Downer and bug people with your issues, right? Idk I suppose I will buck up and make more of an effort to pretend to be friendly. I don't want people to think I am a cold person afterall.
Procrastination is my life. As I write this I should actually be doing homework..lol
My head has been feeling weird today. Like its not grounded on Earth, hate that feeling. Working out usually helps but today it didn't seem to do the trick.
I am excited that I discovered a couple new bands that I like. That doesn't happen much anymore:( I miss the days of being really excited to purchase someone's album. Suppose that is either a sign of the times or of growing older. No Doubt's album is coming out soon so I am hoping that is killer. I just hate it how radio kills everything with repeated airplay! Though sometimes I am no better when it comes to my iPod:)
Cyndi Lauper is on Watch What Happens Live on BRAVO. When I was little I loved her and Michael Jackson. I remember seeing a news show on We Are the World and there was this women on there with orange, red and yellow hair. My 5 year old self was amazed. I told my dad about it and he pulled out her album and asked, "is this who you are talking about"? I listened to her tape on my Cabbage Patch tape player for years. Fast forward to college. A friend and I went to see her at the Minnesota State Fair. I have to say she was amazing! So much energy for someone her age. Her voice was great. A younger guy sitting behind us kept yelling "Goonies." Probably was the only song he knew from her. At one point she responded saying that the band wasn't trained on how to play "Good Enough" (from the Goonies movie). The guy kept yelling it and next thing you know Cyndi sang it acapella for him! Was probably the most amazing thing I have seen a performer do, especially in the middle of a show.
Anyways I better put a dent in this homework!
I am now reading this book called Stop Eating Your Heart Out. Its says that daily journaling is a must because it is an outlet for your feelings. I am an emotional eater so this totally makes sense to me.
That is where this journal comes into play. I am hoping to start writing everyday about whatever is going through my mind.
Today I met with my counselor. We talked about me being stand offish towards others. I have noticed this recently about myself so its sort of interesting that she pointed it out to me. She mentioned that she has noticed whens he greets me I am not always warm but rather cold. I don't know why I am like this as I am not like that always, which she noted. I told her that I am not one to make small talk. It rather bores me and I feel it is stupid to pretend to care about how someone's day is going. Maybe its just me that doesn't really care? I only ask that sort of thing to be polite, because I feel it is an obligation. Not out of genuine concern. Or maybe I should say I only ask it genuinely if I like someone or if its someone close. I feel asking how someone's day is going is pointless because most people will say it is going good regardless if that is the truth or not. At least that is always what I have been told to do as you don't want to be a Debbie Downer and bug people with your issues, right? Idk I suppose I will buck up and make more of an effort to pretend to be friendly. I don't want people to think I am a cold person afterall.
Procrastination is my life. As I write this I should actually be doing homework..lol
My head has been feeling weird today. Like its not grounded on Earth, hate that feeling. Working out usually helps but today it didn't seem to do the trick.
I am excited that I discovered a couple new bands that I like. That doesn't happen much anymore:( I miss the days of being really excited to purchase someone's album. Suppose that is either a sign of the times or of growing older. No Doubt's album is coming out soon so I am hoping that is killer. I just hate it how radio kills everything with repeated airplay! Though sometimes I am no better when it comes to my iPod:)
Cyndi Lauper is on Watch What Happens Live on BRAVO. When I was little I loved her and Michael Jackson. I remember seeing a news show on We Are the World and there was this women on there with orange, red and yellow hair. My 5 year old self was amazed. I told my dad about it and he pulled out her album and asked, "is this who you are talking about"? I listened to her tape on my Cabbage Patch tape player for years. Fast forward to college. A friend and I went to see her at the Minnesota State Fair. I have to say she was amazing! So much energy for someone her age. Her voice was great. A younger guy sitting behind us kept yelling "Goonies." Probably was the only song he knew from her. At one point she responded saying that the band wasn't trained on how to play "Good Enough" (from the Goonies movie). The guy kept yelling it and next thing you know Cyndi sang it acapella for him! Was probably the most amazing thing I have seen a performer do, especially in the middle of a show.
Anyways I better put a dent in this homework!