So the after much soul searching about my life I ended up putting my old depressed martyr victim self away forever this weekend. After years of denial, failure & misery I think I've accepted the chaos & malevolence. The decades + of being in this mindset post my sister getting killed was an extremely tough time. A part of me kinda went back to a ( Read more... )

Yeah that dude who ran into a bunch of people has totally tainted the segment of the gender that can’t get laid to save their lives.
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So no firer class for me, I'm heading back in "middle class" 1st class which is Delta Comfort.
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I'm just in an emotional funk right about now. I'm a MGTOW or a Man Gone Their Own Way. I've realized that I'm not a top choice for women & looking back at past relationships I realized that I was a backup or the safe default at the moment ( Read more... )

Funny seeing people who you knew years ago. I saw this person who I used to work with years ago while also being a key myspace friend [yes we're talking that far back has it been that long?] around town. I am not sure of they remember me but honestly I kind of hope that they don't recognize me ( Read more... )

So after my sister for killed I went into a protective mode where I didn't work or do anything. In some ways it was a good time in my life. My one friend said I was a "time traveler" looking back because of the things I did around that time. I won't go I to details but I'd have to say watching LA Kings games intently in the late 90's is a ( Read more... )

So I'm again at a Starbuks in Canada just hanging out. I like certain items here & I do come over & buy them whenever I can. It gives me something to hold on to that is Canadian.

So basically I have very few in real life friends left. Most of my social integration lately is from work. When work goes bad it makes me sad as I like my co-workers & ( Read more... )

So here I am at my favorite place other than the OC in Lewiston. I just like being surrounded by descent intelligent people. It's kind if crazy that this is so close <20 miles from my house & yet so far away from me culturally & internationally.

Ideally I wish I could marry a Canadian woman. But at this point of my life I realized that I'd be ( Read more... )

After my divorce I realized that for a marriage to work both parties have to be on the same page. For me that is intelligence, social class &amp;amp; values. I live in a small metro bit descent Metro area, I estimate that I had already dated the 10 people that fit my requirements &amp;amp; had relationships with maybe 5 of them. This is out ( Read more... )

No one reads this so I should post something that smacks of serious self-doubt for my own records ( Read more... )