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So this guy that I knew from my childhood & adolescent years passed away. I’m not going to sugar coat it too much but out of minimal respect I never got along with him. He was a condescending dick to anything he said so it seemed. I never friended him on “that social network” & never really thought of him. Outside of people that I knew bringing him ( Read more... )

I’m just under performing yet the world is leaving me alone to an extent for the most part. I’m in an organization that is very shallow on their bench. But it’s not uncommon for places to experience “shrinkFlation” although some entities have been doing it politically for years.
I feel as if I should be doing so much more but like the Military in ( Read more... )

So in just sitting here at my local coffee shop because my schedule changes next week and I won’t be able to come here for a hour then. So right now my figure is pretty uncertain. I don’t know if I’ll get fired for not taking the thing. I’m just in the same holding pattern as I’ve been in for the last 9 years or so.

Yeah it’s just odd to see the ( Read more... )

So I usually go down to Florida for the holidays. This year my folks didn’t go due to the fear of a couple of things. First being the V & potential for unrest. Now I just basically did what I usually do when I’ve not been working (being a sloth) & not cleaning or organizing like I should have been doing for a long time past.

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So the after much soul searching about my life I ended up putting my old depressed martyr victim self away forever this weekend. After years of denial, failure & misery I think I've accepted the chaos & malevolence. The decades + of being in this mindset post my sister getting killed was an extremely tough time. A part of me kinda went back to a ( Read more... )

Yeah that dude who ran into a bunch of people has totally tainted the segment of the gender that can’t get laid to save their lives.
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I can't wait to see The National this afternoon & specifically to hear "Day I Die" Especially for these lyrics ( Read more... )

So I ended up going & meeting an old friend today for coffee. Ironically it was in the same building where he used to live in the basement years ago. We discussed the changes in life (death as his Dad passed away recently) life (his Mom is an alchy who isn't functioning well) & the passing of other friends of ours via dark circumstances & methods ( Read more... )

I'm just in an emotional funk right about now. I'm a MGTOW or a Man Gone Their Own Way. I've realized that I'm not a top choice for women & looking back at past relationships I realized that I was a backup or the safe default at the moment ( Read more... )