Sep 29, 2022 20:11
So this guy that I knew from my childhood & adolescent years passed away. I’m not going to sugar coat it too much but out of minimal respect I never got along with him. He was a condescending dick to anything he said so it seemed. I never friended him on “that social network” & never really thought of him. Outside of people that I knew bringing him up he never entered into my psyche.
In the couple of people who posted & sent his obituary I took a peek at his content. I saw an old family vacation photo & it hit me in the feelsz it was his sports newspaper writer Dad, mom sister & himself. It looked like the early 80’s & they had striped tube socks. It just struck a chord & I don’t k ow why.
His obit read about the stuff he did in high school (which I fully recall) sone summer gig at a historical site (knew people who worked with him) and basically his faded life. He lives in Mpls & went to Minn as B10 college BB was his passion or from what I remember personality trait.
Which lead me to realize that I needed to do something more right my life than being a bro or whatever he was (not sure what he was as he didn’t seem that overall successful)
Yes he did have & suffer from MS which I didn’t know or realize. Which makes me feel even worse is that he spent like the last 8 in a nursing home & his last days in Hospice.
There is always the “deathbed conversion” or making a 180 degree turn but how do you know if you don’t post your L’s? In sone ways I may have tired to be a friend especially over the last 4-5 years as sone politics may have aligned. But privacy & controlling our lives is the priority of what seems to be the order of things.
I’m not sure if I’ll go to the funeral mass but there is a possibility I may just because most of the memories I have of him are of church school. We’ll see but it’s odd how these deaths get to me on some level.
Anyways RIP & thank you for the motivation to do more with my life.
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