Last night Dallin and I went to a party at a professor's house. His wife cooked about a dozen delicious Iranian/Middle Eastern dishes, there was an abundance of wine (but true to my normal self I didn't drink), and well over a dozen professors, artists, and otherwise great people ( Read more... )

What is it about our society that prevents us from being polite to one another ( Read more... )

It occurs to me that I'm not happy. I'm not depressed or anything like that, but I'm not happy with my life. I don't like the societal expectations that are placed on me. I don't want to finish school, get a job, work until I'm 65 or 70, and then hope that I have enough life left to enjoy a decade or so of pursuing passion. I am not satisfied with ( Read more... )

So yesterday at work I checked a guy's ID and he was from Naples! I told him, "I lived there for almost 7 years!" and was about to ask why he moved to Spokane when he looked me straight in the eye, pressed a button on his phone, and started talking to someone else. Never said hi, never asked how I was, and looked me in the eye as he completely ( Read more... )

This has been such an odd week. I worked 2 of my days off. Wednesday was horrible, Thursday was ok. I've had more customers tell me I'm rude (4) since Wednesday than in the almost 5 years I've worked retail (1). I've had 2 people complain about me today. I've also had at least a half dozen thank me for helping them and tell me I'm wonderful. I don' ( Read more... )

Goose might have lymphoma but they're treating for an infection first because she has a fever. If it does wind up being lymphoma we'll have to put her down. There's no way we can afford to treat her and I won't let her suffer ( Read more... )

I will have weekly meetings with an EWU counselor starting on Monday. It should be good. I started thinking about killing myself again last night...I mentally wrote a suicide note. It scares the shit out of me to think/feel like this. I need to get better. I have to. I can't live like this. If they want me to try pills then I will. All I know for ( Read more... )

Things have not been ok lately. I've been more depressed than ever before, contemplating suicide in a more than morbidly-idle way, and almost hurt myself tonight. Then I broke down and told Dallin. I THINK it's something to do with the IUD as it's a relatively recent development. I haven't been exceptionally giddy for a while and it's been a long, ( Read more... )

Dear Customers ( Read more... )

If you are trying to park and hit another car, don't just get back into yours and drive off. HINT: There might be someone in the car across from you writing down your license plate number. Stupid old biddy. This old woman today hit another customer's car as she parked, then drove off. A customer I had just helped was leaving and gave us her ( Read more... )