the back of my skull, where it meets my neck, is in excruciating pain. it's one of those aches borne of too many nights on the floor and too many hours in the van. i'm sitting in my office, easing back into the aches of poorly-situated desks and inexplicable chair heights. my blackberry-thumb is transitioning to mouse-cramp. all is wrong in the ( Read more... )

I turned 28. i'm officially going to have to start scaling back the aging process for my career's sake. I've been advised to back it up to at least 25. See, i'm over the prodigy hill. way over. i'm no longer precocious and ambitious and impressive. with every passing month, i feel like more of a disappointment to my childhood self, who already felt ( Read more... )

One year ago today right this minute, I was wasting the last hour I had with the person I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with. Wasted because I had that deranged urgency that comes from semi-conscious doomsday knowledge. I didn't *KNOW* it was the last hour I'd spend with him, but I knew, a little, or it wouldn't have felt so ( Read more... )

URGENT DISPATCH: CONFLICTED.

my workfriend successfully april fools'd me. IN THE MOST VIOLATING WAY POSSIBLE!

I am extremely impressed.

also, horrified.

I'll just tell you that I was sitting in my cube, with a PHILLIES hat on prominent display, for at least an hour.

fucking fives.

Or, life update week of 2/23:

These are the things that keep me alive, the things i really need in my life at any given time:

• playing music/writing songs,
• social justice work,
• jewish practice,
• connecting with amazing people,
• and of course: adventure, baseball, wrestling.

i'm SO TIRED. i am not doing a GOOD JOB at my DAYJOB today. even though Maude lulled me to sleep last night. it doesn't matter, really. i woke up feeling like i'd been hit by a truck, dragged myself out of bed and began Day 2: NO COFFEE, after falling off the wagon earlier in the week. back to occupying my brain with pop music ( Read more... )

exhaustion + label meeting = why am i so stupid, in the same exact way, all the time ( Read more... )

SNEEZE-SCREAM: there is a man at my office, somewhere down the hall, who SNEEZE-SCREAMS on a daily basis. whenever it happens, my work ceases for at least 10 or 15 minutes while i laugh uncontrollably.

han people vs. luke people: so there have been some conversations of late about gendered icons from childhood. my primary icon of masculinity was ( Read more... )

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My fucking backheadvoice is killing me. When I'm caffeinated, stuff is ok. But I crash every afternoon, and my second coffee only lasts like an hour. Then I want to sleep for all my prime awake hours, and can't sleep as soon as they end ( Read more... )