I remember the first time to be just around Pres' birthday.. I was happy to have just dreamt of him, and even if it wasn't much I held onto every detail after I got up. Escalators, him with Pres waiting for me to finish my family dinner. The second dream was last week, 7 days ago. This one I remember just as well, at Elena's birthday / graduation ( Read more... )

So yesterday Pres and I had "the talk". Whilst on the way back after sending Marcus, he told me he didn't want me feeling like I had to replace Zak. We were on the earlier topic on how I was still affected by Nicstill being angry w me (from Attica night. Funny how it used to be Zak at Butter) and how I felt like he was trying to be Zak, for me, for ( Read more... )

It is not the length, but the depth of who lived.
In 3 words I can sum up everything I've learned about Life -- it goes on - Robert FrostSaw these and thought of you today bro. It's been two months and counting, life has gone on the way it always has, 'cept for this gaping hole in our hearts where you used to reside. On days we don't think about it ( Read more... )

 
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Everyone has a close girlfriend that they'll talk to regarding their day to day activities, or someone who's somewhat an activity partner whenever they want to head out. Most days I prefer my own company. And on others, I've got Presley. I think it goes without saying that the loss of Zak still hangs heavy on us - it doesn't feel the same anymore. ( Read more... )

It's been a month since your passing. I do admit, at times it doesn't feel like it's real - it just feels like you've been away for a very long vacation - a long outfield posting if you will. Everyone's coping in different ways, and it's hard not to be affected sometimes. Esp when Pres comes to me and says he misses you.. that about drives a ( Read more... )

Always stuck with what to say at this space, always compelled to have improved from the last update. I think this space has grown stagnant, and everything I've been meaning to say have been contained to 140 characters or less these days.

The hols was over even before it began. One week worth of partying, bkk etc inclusive before the incident. It's ( Read more... )

It doesn't hurt as much as before - the hurt isn't as raw as before, but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt anymore. We're all focused on rechanneling our energies into helping your family + Elena, and all doing something for you in our own ways. Did you know Rambert and I quit smoking the other day? You'll be so proud of us :) Curls is thinking ( Read more... )

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