So, for anyone not on twitter, here's the latest - I went to my doctor on thursday... well, actually, it wasn't my doctor that I saw since he was on vacation, so technically I saw some other doctor on thursday, and got prescriptions for Ativan and Celexa, plus a month off work. I went in to work yesterday (friday) to apply for a leave of absence ( Read more... )

Something extremely weird is happening. Depression is setting in again. The weird part is not that I'm depressed... it's that I went a very long time without being depressed and now it's back again. By depressed, I mean the constant psychological state... not just getting sad/upset for a couple hours and then moving on (which I've done several ( Read more... )

DENIED.
Yes, that's right ladies and gentleman, my life back-up plan, aka Plan B, aka project get-a-loan-and-get-education-so-I-can-get-a-well-paying-job, has been denied ( Read more... )

I think I might be on the verge of selling everything I own at a loss, or possibly just shooting myself. I've had bad days before, but I've never felt quite like I'm heading for a life on the streets as much as I do right now. I deposited my last paycheque, and my bank account reads less than the amount that the paycheque was for. That means I ( Read more... )

My mom appropriately named what my problem has been recently- I'm in a funk. I decided to look that up on the internet- how to get out of a funk. I found the best website right here.

A chunk from the intro about funks:

"Nary a day went by when I didn’t want to do nothing - despite the double negative - except stare blankly at the dusty ceiling ( Read more... )

I feel a huge sense of loss today. I HATE being tossed from counsellor to counsellor. In this case it was even worse, because I actually LIKED her. Usually sessions are like pulling teeth for me, but it was different. I think her sense of humour really helped put me at ease, and make my issues seem less... heavy. This didn't minimize them (as ( Read more... )

I feel really anxious and irritable right now. I'm tense, and I want to pull out all my eyebrows that I've worked so hard for the past four days to leave alone. I want to have my own set of eyebrows again, but my condition tells me that it would be more rewarding to remove them. I'm trying to resist the urge using a bit of habit-reversal ( Read more... )

It's t minus 1 hour. I have some brainstorming to do.
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