Today, I finally reached a new level in playing against my greatest adversary-I took his queen without losing mine. This is a substantial improvement, in addition to never losing my momentum for the remainder of the game.

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God, evolution, civilization- people have long been making excuses for their actions, which only complicate their lives. Paths of escape twist and turn into mountains of miscalculation, leaving them stranded with consequence and darkness. This is the story about us all, viewed through the eyes of the animals of Mumsville.

I am like them now- am ( Read more... )

I came to an epiphany as I took a shower this morning. I have changed. I don't wonder if I've changed from who I used to be, but I actually have changed. Maybe I've BEEN changed, but I'm different now, in any case. Uusually when others point it out, it seems more obvious. Having others around in the first place makes it easier, too.

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Read, and enjoy- you miserable fuckers. Sorry, I've got a lot to be upset about ( Read more... )

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"Complicated" is a nice of saying "You're fucking it up for the rest of us." But I digress... Actually, I hardly ever watched his show when it was on, but it's interesting to see he's still out there, plugging away, trying to make the lazy get off their collective asses and think. My view is it's a lost cause- like all spectacular lost causes. You ( Read more... )

"Freedom's just another word for nothin' left to lose."

-Janis Joplin, long dead singer/songwriter

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It was on this day my probation finally came to an end, and so did the chapter in my life of living by other people's rules. I agreed at the start to complete my 5-year sentence without so much as one breach of our agreement, and did my best to live ( Read more... )

For the past several years of my life, the first minute or so of this pretty much summed up my problems:

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Yes, the first minute or so is a good display of the mental and emotional pressures I was under, though they may or may not have showed. Ideas of worth, failure, loneliness, ridicule, loss- those were a far more bleak vision than that of being a ( Read more... )

Wonder what I've been up to personally? Training- very hard. The proof:

"Overtraining"

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Over the holidays I came to a startling epiphany: The thing I've been seeking... the thing I sought for several years, that led to my tragic downfall... well, I found it ( Read more... )

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I've been silent here for awhile- a couple of weeks, basically- and while that's short term for most people (a good number of whom start and LJ and never even update it even once), for me it's quite a while ( Read more... )