~.: So I found this wonderful community on LJ call relationhelp, and posted my drama up there for some advice. One girl linked me to this site, and I took a look around. I clicked under the "defective" term, and read all the bullets. I feel each and every single one of those. Every. Single. One. I looked at the categories of abuse in the quiz section, and ( Read more... )

~.: I feel like there must be something wrong with me lately. I went from feeling fantastic just a week ago to feeling anxious, depressed, and just plain moody. Yesterday I was ready to tear my hair out from the anxiety I felt, today I feel like I can't do anything right. I was late to Guille's house this morning, which made us both late to work, ( Read more... )

~.: So I must say that the carefree feeling I'd sort of had once I got paid yesterday is gone completely now. After paying my dad back for what he gave me on Wednesday so I could put gas in my car, including paying him for Sallie Mae, going grocery shopping, and finally paying WomenFit what I owe them, I'm down to $40 to last me the next two weeks ( Read more... )

( Some TMI under here .... like, really :x )

~.: Screw you. Do not drive drunk to my house in the middle of the night to eat my food and tell me that you feel I haven't been supporting you ever since we had our last serious talk about how I need to be more supportive. And then pass out in my living room when the conversation hasn't been resolved. And tell me I'm too sensitive and that I bring ( Read more... )

~.: I really hate myself right now for hoping he'll text or call me. I'm pretty sure he's probably moved on from all this and gotten on with his day/life, but I will continue to feel tension over this for the next week at least. I hate when I'm misunderstood, and I hate when it's by the people I really care about, because sometimes being ( Read more... )

~.: I'm not even sure if I should really be going on about this here. I just am really feeling the need to talk about this right now, since five hours ago, the conversation ended on a rather unsatisfactory note for me (excepting the fact that I had stopped sobbing and he had stopped yelling ( Read more... )