so...yesterday was difficult. more difficult than i imagined. we buried my stepdad. well not buried because he was cremated. his ashes were in an urn, a beautiful one too, and we placed him in like a hole in the wall that is closed off by a piece of black marble. and i didnt realize how much he actually meant to me. how much my heart had made room ( Read more... )

Ive always wanted to take acting classes. I wonder where I could take some? Any suggestions? I think it would be a lot of fun. I wish my life could just be about me taking classes. Dance classes, painting classes, acting classes, and even some boxing classes. Id be such a well rounded person. lol. Wouldnt that be the life? But seriously, anyone ( Read more... )

The Red wall in my home ( Read more... )

what the hell is wrong with me?

I have this obsessive relationship with the past. It effects everything I think about and do. Its not exactly how I wanted to live my life.

 My favorites are underlined. Googlism for: caridad

caridad is a project which was founded in 1990 to preserve the visual arts resources created by the nation's leading chicano art
caridad is a component of the california ethnic and multicultural archives
caridad is an acronym for "children achieving responsibility and independence despite any ( Read more... )

I dreamed with ____ last night. It was very vivid and intense. And I felt so sad when I woke up. I havent seen ___ face in so long. I hate dreams like that. The ones that are so real you think you are really there. After those dreams  you can still smell the skin of the person in them, when youre laying in bed. ____disappeared. I havent heard from ( Read more... )

Alright, so I dont want to get too carried away or anything. But just like The Secret says, if you want something, you need to invision it! Ok, well Elise called me yesterday and told me that we might have a launch party to promote her website and swimwear at Karu & Y!! Which means I will be in charge of the runway show!!! Plus, creating the theme ( Read more... )

Its been years since Ive written in this thing. Seems the only person still writing is Gabbie. Hoorah for Gabbie!

I know this is insane. It really is. And even more insane that I talk about it like its a casual thing. Im dead serious when I say this. But I think Im obsessed with Michael C. Hall. The actor who played David on Six Feet Under and ( Read more... )

Video provided by VideoCodes4Ui wish that life had a soundtrack. wouldnt that be nice? while your making love, "Fix You" by Coldplay. Trying to pick a booger from your nose in the middle of a crowd - MissionImpossible song comes on. i dunno...i think it would make everyday alot more interesting...i wonder what song would play when you were taking ( Read more... )

i truely hate coming to work and having to babysit these little shits. they dont listen to anyone, plus when you tell them anything, THEY ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY. no matter what it is. they have a comment about it. its sooo irritating. i seriously wish all of them would just disappear...forever...that would be nice ( Read more... )