Spent today going through old emails, old text documents, old stories, old writings.. things dated 2003 ( Read more... )

So i pretty much said i was done using Livejournal. But a good friend reminded me it was a place to vent. And i always hated using this, simply because friends had open access to what i wanted to say, and it either created problems, made people feel bad for me, or just..... it wasnt the response i wanted.

So im here to vent. Im not willingly sharing ( Read more... )

Yeah. I'm posting an entry. Random moment tonight made me feel like checking ( Read more... )

When reality grew to the point of being unbearable, i would run to my dreams.
Where do i run to now, when i'm even ashamed to be in my dreams?

I'd post more, but for some time now, it makes me feel like a very weak person to use this for my misery. It makes me feel weak inside that i have to complain, regardless who reads it.

Theres just too much ( Read more... )

Don't read this. its just alot of rambling on and on and complaining and bitching and just not worth it.

I kinda have stopped my whole online spree of whoring places such as livejournal. it seemed every night i would write in here, and now, even tonight, i really felt afraid to write here.
Today has been a total trainwreck. Nothing could work in ( Read more... )

Mom: "What Will It Take To Get You To Follow Through With A Divorce?"
Dad: "Make me an offer"

I'm just afraid at the drastic change of lifestyle. My mom woke me up to tell me this, and said i needed to find a way to pull my own weight. I've been trying mom.

I'm just really afraid with life right now... :(

I need a little angel or something to enter ( Read more... )

Today feels like one of those days you wish you never had. One that before happens, you know it will suck. I knew this day would suck, I just didn’t realize how badly it would.

To make a long story as short as it can, I had… 7 different people want me to hang out. And I let down 7 different people. Now I’m all alone in my room, writing ( Read more... )

Well, most of this you might not understand, i basically wanted to get this moment down in words (letters actually) so i can share it with others. It deals with a game i play, online. DDR online, or otherwise known as Stepmania Online. Sure, i may not be using my feet to play, but its still quite fun. (i think everyone on my friends or those who ( Read more... )

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Since Friday, life has been going nonstop. My mom has like, just has me going, doing shit for her ALL THE TIME. life is at an unrest, and im tired. I am tired of putting my time off for her, and things that she can help do. She has had me run out to our vent (1 hour drive there and back)... 5 already.... then bitches because i have to keep asking ( Read more... )