Watch your step, my ground is fragile.
Since Friday, life has been going nonstop. My mom has like, just has me going, doing shit for her ALL THE TIME. life is at an unrest, and im tired. I am tired of putting my time off for her, and things that she can help do. She has had me run out to our vent (1 hour drive there and back)... 5 already.... then bitches because i have to keep asking for gas. i understand the need to go to the vet, but just, throwing all the responsibilities on me so you can do what you wish is hard. Exams are coming up, which is a stress in its own... i just feel like i need to scream. i can't handle her waking me up every day at 8:30 yelling because of this and that. i can't handle her "can you do me a huge favor?" i cant handle the verbal abuse shes gives me, on top of all ive done.
I just cant stop shaking. My mind has been uneasy for weeks now. i feel like im on the verge of a mental breakdown. I can't handle this. I can't handle all the responsibility she is demanding, and deal with my life, and her abuse. "Out of sight out of mind huh?" "I'm just sick of you all, none of you can do anything responsible"...
I got to go... i need to drive through the storm outside through thick snow covered back roads to the vets to take my cat to get her put to sleep, then hope i can make it back in time to get cat chores done, and out to class with enough gas and hope i'm there in time to do our final test...
*sigh*