I am jumpy and scatter-brained and heart-racing
I am Jack's unresolved problem.

As usual, the horoscope below just about sums it up. I am having a really hard time lately at letting go of past habits (well ones I wish were past habits anyways) and am all with the uncertainty lately too. I feel like I've misplaced that confidence that everything I touch is awesome that I used to have.......I have to get some semblance of that ( Read more... )

UGH, I hate how you find internet presences of people you used to know, especially when it impacts your thoughts of going out and doing stuff. I was just looking up the schedule for Winterfolk, and who should be playing but someone i dated for awhile last year which ended badly (b/c he acted ridiculously and hurtfully) M" for those of you have ( Read more... )

I actually dreamt last night, which has been rare since I've been getting only 5 or 6 hours of sleep lately (am a bit of a zombie usually and require lots of coffee, but am getting by). Soon to be remedied, hopefully ( Read more... )

It's funny how it hurts a bit, even though it's not a big deal, really.  No one likes to get the shun i guess just for all these things that we do to keep from setting ourselves adrift and giving up. But loyalties run deep.....lines have been drawn and I'm on the other side, again. It seems I can't helping hurting myself inadvertently....every ( Read more... )

Echoes of you are circling around me like a hawk, striking in my dreams and causing flashes of anger and regret in the midst of the most mundane of chores, on the subway, at work.......I dreamt of you last night, voice carrying over the crowd, a look of elation on your face, me lost, separated from who i was with, catch you and say hello as you ( Read more... )

....that your name would stop showing up in everything I read.

...that it was easy for me to send you that email.

...that I didn't mean everything I said in it.

...that I knew what to do to make the hurt go away.

...that everything didn't feel so final.

I will not be upset today ( Read more... )

That I was half happy with. Have a look ( Read more... )

...........wherein Gillian tries to not verge on the obsessive side of things, but fails cuz  she can't make her head SHUT UP.  And thus degenerates into speaking in the third person to deflect from her crazy-making brain that tells her she should worry about stuff that will obviously be fine. Gillian does tend to partially agree with her head, for ( Read more... )